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2007-02-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

trlalalals.. went back to kc today (: fun fun bahhs (: so many ppl didn't really recognised me but still.. they did after a while (: heheh. so cute lurhs to see them (: hope tml KC tennis team will win the games (; though my dear players are not playing.. RARRS! but wish them luck.. GO KC!! hehs! yeap yeap.. done my home wrk.. ate plenty of ice cream.. rarrs.. (:
so happy =D

2007-02-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

yay!! hahahaha.. going holiday on next saturday night ! muwahshahahahahs!! and i think coming back on monday morning arhs? or is it tuesday?? not sure (: hahahas.. hmmm.. it would be shopping spree!! yayness ((: hehe.. going back to KC tml (: hehehe.. mum mum my favorite noodle store ((: hehehe.. trlalalallalas.. wanting to know when is the o's result coming out but shan never reply so hmmm.. nvm. ask another friend of mine so this means.. my dear cousin jessie can go holiday with us! rarrs!! hehehehe.. so she no need to worry abt her bad results then cannot go (: hehehe! yayay!! lalalalala.. hmmmm.. kinda high.. have no idea why.. but who cares ((: roarrrs!

living to my fullest without you
living to my fullest and try to love you with what i got
living my life for you treasure me and love me and show me true love (:

<333
you're still not my boyfriend and i'm glad (: HAHAHAHA!! =p

2007-02-04T12:55:00.000+08:00

hellos! hmmm.. yesterday went to techpark for suntanning with dear lok to (: hahaha... took lots lots lots of pictures for the whole day.. and here is the link http://applelifehelp.multiply.com/photos/album/78 yeaps.. so anyone who wants to view u can go into here (: yeahh.. had a great day.. after tanning went to vivo's candy empire and bought lots of sweets.. (: hehehe.. after that walked around.. shopped around and everything.. met up with classmates and giant.. hahaha.. walked around.. joke around slack around then toto and i had to go.. because it was rather late.. hop onto the wrong bus and ended up at joon keng i think.. hahaha.. giant was worried.. hahahas.. he asked me to call mom first and tell her.. soyeap i did.. tskk.. today horrible day lurhs.. just hais.. dont know larhs.. nvm bahs.. anyways.. yesterday was fun day.. and a lil of sadness.. today is more sadness than fun day.. yeaps..

2007-02-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

trlalalalas (: updated new photos (: green jacket is my beloved classmate nicole.. then the white shirt is my collegue may.. blue shirt is my hong kong friend lok to ((:

beach day tml (:

2007-02-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

2007-01-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

hellos! its been some time since i last updated (: was busy with school works and all (: coping well ((: hehe.. went shopping today with lok to.. bought a lot of things.. got him something for v'day?? hahaha.. because he got me something.. yeaps. hmmm.. bought a few tops, bikini and skirt (: hehehe.. saturday will be suntanning day ((: hehe.. with lok to to to! hehehe.. hhmmmm.. yeaps.. thats all (: willl update soon.. donna i love you! (: mwauush.. u know i do treasure you darling (:

2007-01-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

lalalaa. i've gotten my new phone! yay! hehehe ((: hmmm.. this month really bought so so so many things! suppose to go shopping today again.. but then i told mummy.. enough.. STOP! aiyoo! maybe next week or something?? i go and buy skirt and shorts. hehe ((: heard that i'm leaving around chinese new year..ahahah! gotten everything and prepare everything already (: can't wait to go (: hehehe.. buying bikini soon.. then go suntannin!hur hur hur! hmmmm.. yesterday was a really nice day... super nice (: hehehe.. shall not talk about it anyways (: hehehe.. yeaps.. (:
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2007-01-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

2007-01-25T21:22:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAAHA! omg lurhs.. i've hit the damn bloody bull eye.. i knew it was her.. nyhahahahas.. i wonder how will they be like.. hmmmmm.... together or not? hahahaha..

2007-01-25T17:48:00.000+08:00

bought many many new stuff (: life is new now (: hehehe! bought lots of tops.. (: great.. new friends.. hahaha.. hmmm... new mp3 (: hmmm.. new bag, new jacket, new shoes.. maybe perhaps a new phone? hahaha! (: cheers! its raining season again.. cold.. shall hibernate at home (: dont worry our friendship will not drift because i still hope we will still be the close friend we use to be (: share share yr problems with me alrights (: haha.. i will listen (:

pretty curl eye lashes you've got (:

2007-01-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

trlalalalas.. i'm happy happy happy (:
hehehe. pampered myself with lots of tops!! lalalala!! ((: hehehe.. and i bought myself a ipod nano?? hehehe ((: yay! hmmmm.. wasn't feeling at my best of mood earlier.. but now i'm alright already (: mom told me to handle my feelings well if i want certain things.. she guided me.. cool.. (: didn't knw she would do that.. i thought she would lecture me about it... yeaps.. hahahas.. she's going to get me a new phone i guess?? hahaha.. hmmm.. but its a sony k800i that one bahs.. because i dont like other phones.. .. yeaps.. hmmmm.. happy with what i've got now.. (: lots of fun! but time table have changed. rarrs!

2007-01-21T18:11:00.000+08:00

hellos (: i've just updated some pictures (: hope u ppl enjoy it (: been busy lately frm home to sch to hospital then to home.. can't sleep well.. many ppl told me that my eye bags are coming out.. oh no! but who cares! (: hehehe.. hmmm.. later there'll be the new dance show (: nice nice and i shall watch it.. and i'm tired.. afternoon almost fainted when walking home.. hahaha.. who cares.. lol.. stupid sun so hot.. i walk until i blur blur seh seh then i sat down... yeaps (: takecare ppl! (:

2007-01-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

today went to school.. reached school already called vashon.. stupid lurhs she.. she was slping at home larhs! then stupid thierry not in school today again.. lols.. hmmm.. then went up for class.. was late. told mr yap the reason so he said i have to be earlier.. so yeahs.. had chinese.. the break then went out with those ppl i dont really know.. and after knowing them. they are actually nice ppl! hahaha!! yeaps.. then chatted with weiwen.. then she ask me a lot of thigns.. and i found out that she and her girlfriend 2 yrs lurh! wah.. thats like long man! hahahaha.. yeaps.. then played hangman with the grp who are not doing poa.. haaha.. retarded lurhs.. yeaps.. went for a quick break then headed to 7-11 to gather then left for ngee ann poly for the open house.. yeahs. hahahas.. saw laura!!! heheheh! i miss her so much lurhhhs!! hehehehe.. yeaps.. then went walking around.. then headed to bugis to meet shan.. slack aruond for a while already then i headed home.. went home already.. had a call frm the hospital that my uncle is admitted to hospital.. sians.. so headed to the hospital.. yeahs.. took care of him until 9pm then rushed home for piano.. talked to the doctor.. she said she got high chance of either passing away or either getting a stroke lorhs.. so yeaps.. looking after him as long as i can and spending more time with him lurhs.. then my auntie say he damn cute siah.. his "will" he wrote to give me a room in his house for me.. hahaaha! cute right.. lols.. then his handphone and his laptop also.. hahaha.. the rest of my cousin didn't get anything from him... see this is why he pampers me so much and im his only niece that he look after so well.. like how kor do too (: yeaps.. piano was great lurhs.. pieces that i'm playing are

brightest

love is blue

memory

shooting star

rock-a-bye-baby

xiang ni

tear drops

[some jap anime song]

thats all.. so many.. but i have 1 yr to cope with all (: i'll do it.. but sure by the concert day sure a lot will be cut out but out of blue is my trademark in the school already (: hehehe!

2007-01-17T23:19:00.000+08:00

2007-01-17T21:19:00.000+08:00

this morning woke up.. was shock to see so many peopl's messages! hahahaha.. thanks ppl for missing me ((: hahaha! thanks for asking if i'm ok.. PEOPLE I'M ALRIGHT!! ((: no worries!! hahahaha (: alrights?? hmmm.. today miss my bus.. rarrrs! but got into the same bus as vashon.. ((: and both of us were stuck in the jam.. nyhahahahahs! reach school.. then mr yap told us that we are going to NYP tml! hahaha.. yay! means.. there's no lesson! rarrr! hehehe! hmmm.. had english then maths.. stupid ms lau keep disturbing ppl.. lol.. then after that she say she knw i'm called apple.. so she gave me a packet of apple sour sweet.. crazy one.. lol... maths was okok bahs.. the " new" boys sat beside me.. honestly.. he doesn't look handsome.. dont understand why so many ppl say he handsome.. he.. in my list.. FAIL.. lol!! not say he handsome or ugly.. just average bahs.. nothing in his looks that tells me he is handsome.. lol.. all PJ! hahahaha.. he wear his pants like.. hmm... he too big for his jeans like that.. lol.. okies.. shall not talk about him.. its bad.. later i lost my tongue! blehhs! hmmm.. break i zi lian kept taking picture.. then vashon say i zilian until wu yao ke jiu... lol! went back to class.. hmm i have free period because i'm not taking physics.. so i'm the only one.. thanks to thierry jong lahs! nv come to school! tsk! so mr yap told me to sit in the class but behind and do my own things. stupid keng long.. borrow liquid paper lurhs.. then ruler.. put back then borrow again. hahah.. i pek chiat i pass him my whole pencil case and told him.. man man shuan.. shuan hao le.. huan gei wo.. haha.. then he laugh.. crazy.. then brynner msg me say i look so cute behind siting alone.. like one little girl wearin pink jacket duno doing what behind.. lol! tskkk.. then dont know whats wrong with shanon and jeremy also.. they see me.. they hello shihui!.. hello shihui!! crazy one lurhs!.. chem was totally bored lurhs! everyone in the class almost fell asleep.. hehs! finished lesson the moment i walk out of the classroom.. shanon stand outside the classroom and kept saying bye shihui! bye shihui!! hahaha.. retarded lurhs he.. lols.. took the lift down. met sharon downstairs (: glad that she manage to find her way there ((:.. headed to bugis.. walked around.. hahaha.. and we were being retarded with those finger pens lurhs! lol.. damn retarded.. headed to ubi to meet all slack... watch the 7'o clock show then walked a while.. then took a cab.. shan sent me to take a cab.. yeaps.. then wennt home. slept in the cab.. then the uncle laughed at me saying that i so tired still go out.. hahahaha.. lols! reached home.. and surprise that i have a new tv in my room and its working (: hahahaha.. good good.. nyhahahhahas! maybe i'll be uploading some zilian pics later ((: rarrr! hehehehe

2007-01-16T20:24:00.000+08:00

today.. went to school in the morning.. took 196.. vashorn though i took the same bus but we didn't.. but the bus was behind each other.. hahaha.. hmmm.. yeaps.. reach outside 7-11.. saw all the boys outside.. then they all were like gd morning shihui.. gd morning shihui! retards lurhs.. pratically the whole building also knows my name lurhhs! tskk.. hmmm.. went inside the lift.. thought that i wouldn't take the same lift as them.. then... there's this women inside the lift.. actually opened the door.. so they all came in.. then they start the good morning shihui thing again.. lol.. then the women stared at me.. lols.. went inside the class together and all.. chinese teacher didn't came because she was tired i guess.. she just came back to singapore yesterday night.. so she's kind of dont feel like coming.. so she didn't came.. so we had free period for the rest of the day lurhs.. then talked to nicole and christina.. yeaps.. then stupid brynner keep taking his small tortise to throw at me.. then ask me pick up.. idiot one lurhs.. then i say he PJ.. because he couldn't see his tortise.. retarded lurhs.. he step on it.. then say i take his tortise for i dont knw why reason.. then he throw again and again.. so i "confiscate" it.. hahahaha.. then he keep telling me to return him back.. hahaha.. i got hold of it almost the whole day until it was time to go home then i returned him.. then he ask me to keep.. he give me.. idiot.. i give back to him he throw back to me.. then i give back to him.. then he throw back again.. like playing ball lurhs.. then mr yap was like.. guys.. enough enough.. lol.. then i walk out.. so vashorn scolded me idiot.. then i said she's a moron.. then she say no.. idiot higher-class than moron.. but the fact is that... moron is "higher-class" than idiot.. hahaha.. then she stand there kinda blur.. so ignored her.. took a bus to parkway to meet you... slept during the bus side.. then as usual.. stand up very hard to walk because the knee-cap its like dislocated.. limp all the way to kfc.. hahaha.. stupid.. did my homework then went to buy my ear ring then you came and meet me.. then went back to kfc to have lunch.. went to arcade to play then to 5th floor to play pool then send you home.. yeaps.. didn't really talk to her.. because i know once i talk to her.. i will cry.. so i kept quiet.. i dont want her to see me cry.. so i have to be strong.. if you think not.. then not bahs.. yeaps.. met adeline.. talked to her.. she told me how you feeled and all.. running away. yeaps.. rowena and thierry met us later on.. then went to kc to fetch jasmine.. went back to parkway.. ate a bit at jasmine's parent's stall. yeahs.. hmmm.. jasmine also told me to be strong. i hope i can bahs.. trying.. hmm.. didn't wrk today because adeline and rowena say i dont seem to be in the mood and i really wasn't.. feeling pretty down.. rarrrs.. guess.. i dont want to think too much.. i'm waiting for the time that you come home.. even if the gates rust and drops... sigh*.. home pretty early.. yeahs..

2007-01-16T00:08:00.000+08:00

things that u did to disappoint me today..u went off without saying bye to me..nvm,i went to find u..all 13th floors,trying to find u..every corner..i couldnt find u..i got anxious..called u so many fucking things..u didnt answer..u finally answer,u dont bother to say sorry..u jsut went what?!like i owe u how many millions liddat..then nvm,i ask u where are u..u just keep somewhere la somewhere la..fuck la..then nvm,i finally noe where the hell are u,ran out the lift and go find..and found u with sean..nvm,i just turned and walked back..u claimed to saw me,but u dont bother doing anything to contact or whatever..then nvm,pass 1 letter also cannot pass to me on ur own..wtf la..why not ask urself..do u love me anot,if u do..why are u doing these kinda shits to me..i already say ler,i not say no feelings at all leh..i still like u leh..can u dont treat me this way?it still fucking hurts la..
this is from her...

i'm sorry.. hais.. i seriously didn't knw u came and look me up.. i seriously didn't knw that u called me.. i seriously didn't knw.. i'm really sorry.. i only knew that it was u when sean told me.. and less then a sec u're not seen there anymore.. i felt very happy indeed because u came and find me.. and was anxious.. after so long.. i felt at least u cared.. sean and me just met... i asked him to pass the letter because i can't wait for u to read the letter.. and i want you to know... whats inside the letter.. its not that i want to treat u this way.. but i just can't believe u can really treat me like a friend.. hours after the break-up... and i know it hurts.. cos i hurt more than u do.. because i destroy so many things with you with both my hands..hais.. i'm just so stupid lurhs.. hais.. now u keep asking me to move on.. i bet u would feel the same as the other time i told u so.. how terrible it feels.. when someone u love and still love you telling u this.. and that i really really want you back.. can't u come back.. hais.... i know whatever i say to you now its too late because u said so... and that whatever i say to you.. you would be whatever and wont listen and say thats its all excuses.. you believe it or not about this evning.. its up to you.. as long as i know i'm really sorry for what happened..

2007-01-15T23:44:00.000+08:00

The love you can’t have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most. It’s so hard pretending to be friends with someone special when every time you look at that person it just hurts even more knowing that all you see is ultimately everything that you want but you can’t have. Isn’t it stupid when you say, “no, I don’t love that person anymore.” But still, when the memories are refreshed and that person become visible again in your life. You’ll stare and say, “Damn it! Why can’t I forget you?” So each time I see you, I say to myself, “I moved on.” Each time you smile at me, I say to myself, “yeah, were just friends!” But every time you look at me, I end up saying, “Shit! It’s so hard to pretend!” . Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together and chances to share. See how it hurts. You only have chances, just chances.

2007-01-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

this is the picture that shows how i feel..

and what the raindroplets told me :(

2007-01-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning.. eyes are like.. hmmm.. golfish.. terribly swollen.. cried so much.. but of no use.. if only tears could bring u back to me.. yeaps.. woke up.. went to bathe.. went to school.. asked vashorn to wait for me outside 7-11.. through-out the bus ride.. she was like.. ehh.. dont cry leh.. dont cry.. then after awhile she said.. cry for what siahs.. lols.. then she say yah its very hard to get over somebody.. then i told her.. very very hard.. espcially the one u love dearly and u make her leave you with you own hands.. then i told her what happened.. then almost cried.. then after a while i just diam diam..stone a while and fell asleep.. yeaps.. in class.. didn't concentrate.. teacher still asked me if i was sleepy. then i was like no.. and she went.. hmmm i think i know what happened.. so i just sat down.. continue drinking green tea.. yeaps.. wanted to buy chocolate because you told me.. eating chocolates give me happy homones.. but.. after 2nd though no.. i'm so tired to eat.. tired of munching.. tired of doing everything.. so i sat there.. hmmm... during break time didn't really do anything.. talk to my little girl.. then cried a bit.. then victor, wilson and some other guy saw.. then they just like tried to cheer me up.. but they didn't ask me why.. so yeaps.. then walk walk walk.. feeling so upset.. dont knw what to do. feeling so lost.. feeling so stupid to distroy it.. yeaps.. had lifeskill and planned on what i want to be.. so this stupid partner of mine told me he wants to be a house-husband.. then nicole and i went.. WHAT?!?! then he kept giggling.. then he told me.. goldfish today not nice without smile.. so must smile.. lols.. yeaps.. then nicole and i dont take POA.. so we went to the other room.. then had shanon, victor, keng long, wei wen and some other guy.. those boys are.. retarded lurhs.. while i was writing a letter to you.. i cried kept crying.. then they didn't ask also.. but they behind me do monkey acts.. then lock every single person in the n class at the other room and those from the o class that went to the toilet.. so there's this guy.. he walk into the room and he got shock because he was some sort lost in the room of walls.. u see.. the door was camofluge with the wall.. so he went to the wall and started hiting and went.. hello? hello? hello?.. darn hella funny.. that really did made me laugh.. but for a sec only.. so i cleaned my tears finished up the letter.. and then i teared again.. how irritating.. but i've got kleenex (: hahaha.. went to the toilet.. brynner saw me crying then he ehhh! you! then i walk away.. so finish cleaning up in the toilet i walked out.. i frighten brynner and he almost fell off his chair.. that part was funny.. his face give those WHAT THE HELL kind of look.. hahahaha.. yeaps.. went for lunch break.. walked around.. then those stupid boys keep asking vashorn, thierry and i get inside the lift with them.. and squeeze together.. then we were like no! then they were like HURRY! then we were like bye! then they close the door.. but we have no idea.. how come... they landed later then us.. guess too many ppl..yeaps.. walk around.. soon it was time to have our geography lesson.. so pratically did worksheet and slack for 30mins or so.. then thierry went down to smoke with the boys.. then vashorn and i waited for thierry.. brynner being a stupid full.. go say what he dont smoke.. tell them dont smoke.. then the next moment he started smoking.. no logic.. -.- .. hehs! hmmm.. then he asked all of us to go pub on friday because its kenglong's birthday.. maybe i'm going.. shall decided by then.. (: hmmmm.. headed to parkway.. went macers toilet to tie hair.. then went to meet you, jing, eileen, miko and adeline.. saw grandpa.. then after a while i left.. saw grandpa.. then he walked me to the shuttle bus area.. then he talked to me.. and i told him what happened.. he tried hard to make me cheer up.. yeaps.. receive a few miss calls frm u.. didn't knw because it was on silent mode in my bag.. so yeaps.. only realise it when i put it on the pole and the pole was VERY NOISY.. then everyone was starring.. thats when i realise it.. sorry for not telling you where was i because i wasn't feeling alright.. and i dont want you to see it.. yeaps.. and i'm sorry about the harsh sms i send to you.. i'm not strong enough and i'm sorry.. yeaps.. went to wrk.. asked grandpa to pass the letter to her because i dont knw how to pass to her.. its like the statics incident.. u can see her.. but u can't touch her.. thats how i'm feeling but much more terrible because she's no longer mine.. and i still want her back... sigh*... went to wrk.. then they saw my eyes.. and asked abt it also.. so yeahs.. then uncle was like.. dont sad already ok? then i told him try to.. then he asked a lot of things and told me abt his younger times.. may too told me also.. hehs.. she also told me she have a girlfriend.. so yeaps.. and told me.. cheer up.. if will come back.. then will come back dont worry.. so yeaps.. and i hope you will be back bahs.. didn't feel well today also.. gastric again.. medicine is going to finish.. so maybe going to see a doctor soon.. so yeaps.. eee.. and this morning i vomited.. because i smelt the milk.. drink it then i dont knw i got chock or something by the smell then i started vomiting.. lols.. had a slight fever.. lol.. maybe its just me.. lol.. dont know.. hmmm.. felt to light playing under the rain.. like.. the raindrop told me.. dont cry.. even if i cry.. they are covering my tears (: how sweet of them (: yeaps.. hmmm.. stupid ah loon danm irritating.. i so so so busy arhs.. he go disturb me ask me pass him the delivery things and all.. so rarr lurhhs! tsk! yeaps. now its so cold.. and i guess it will be freezing cold from today onwards.. nothing to make me warm already... yeaps..

2007-01-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

those pictures are ting zhi and i.. we were jamming everyone's phone.. espcially those who bullied us.. hahahahahaha! do we did the "ah lians" pose.. hmmm.. thats the fastest way we can jam phone without thinking of any other pose (: pictures taken on sunday

2007-01-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

2007-01-15T01:21:00.000+08:00

i introduce u.. kleenex.. the tissue that will be next to yr computer.. when u need.. when u cry.. it will be there for u.. when u are dirty it will also be there for u.. ppl go grab them now..how i knw its gd.. because i used 2 box lehs (: it help me clean my tears away (:
THANK YOU KLEENEX

sorry being crazy.. (:

2007-01-15T01:12:00.000+08:00

dear readers.. i'm so happy that i took some last picture with her.. and she left me today.. so yeaps.. today will be a brand new day for me bahs (:.. and i'm so happy that i found out i've been cheated by a guy.. yayness!.. lol.. guess... i'm being stupid bahs.. guess.. yesterday was the last day i got to kiss her, hold her tight, hug her.. and the next moment u knw she left u.. nvm (: she's still my close friend (; i will treasure her.. and i still love her deeply.. hmmm.. i guess.. i'm so happy until i dont want to blog le (: take care!

2007-01-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

the pictures below are taken yesterday (: and i didn't blog yesterday because she told me to slp early.. yeaps.. and didn't allow me to use the computer.. so i didn't.. (:

2007-01-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

2007-01-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

this morning.. raining raining day.. geee.. went to school all wraped up.. was late for school.. but mr yap didn't scold.. he questioned abt my leg.. haha.. he asked.. your leg okay already? i see you wearing shoes already.. so i told him yup.. its alright now (: he was glade and happy.. lol.. then he asked me why was i late.. so i told him with a smile that there's a jam at suntec so i was late.. and he accepted my apology.. ( he have to ) yeaps! hahaha.. hmmm.. had lessons and everything.. cold and all.. break time ate mash potatoe... lunch break ate chicken rice.. vashorn went to apply for her pure biology so only left thierry and i.. had chemistry lesson.. thierry and i some sort of giggle through the whole lesson.. because mrs ng our principle or chem teacher.. teaches us in a damn weird way.. this is how she thought us : she flashed the answers on the visualizer.. then she cover it.. and ask us for the answer.. then after a while.. she wrote the answer on the board.. and told us that thats not the answer to the question we are doing.. but after all her explanation and all.. she told us that the answer on the board is the answer.. lol.. how weird.. yeah..rowena and adeline came.. rowena fetch thierry.. whereas adeline fetch me (: oooh how nice! ((: hehe.. hmmm.. after that headed to bugis to meet baby.. then walk around and everything.. then she had to go off to start work because her break was over.. she told me she wanted to catch the winnie the pooh for me.. but the pooh drop.. haha.. so when she left i went to another winnie the pooh machine and catch.. and i caught one winnie the pooh for baby (: hehehe.. the winnie the pooh infront have a star and u turn the star.. and it will be like a musical box kind of thing.. cute right? and its in a soft toy form.. (: hahaha.. i've gotten her a donald duck.. now donald duck have a new brother called pooh (: hehe.. jasmine reached already then we went to billy bomber's to have dinner.. baby paid for our meal. (: thanks baby. muackx! (: hmmm.. then i showed baby the pooh.. she didn't believe =((.. and she kept asking me how i caught it.. hmmm.. tyco? yeaps.. hmmm.. went to meet joyce mummy.. bought her gucci bag for six thousand over dollars.. THIS IS CRAZY MAN! I WOULD NEVER SPEND THIS KIND OF MONEY ON THIS BAG!.. lol.. then went to adidas.. she got me a shoe.. (: i like it pretty much (:.. say bye bye to nike dunks :((( .. no more brown brown to walk walk on already :(( hmmm.. the salesgirl at adidas was asking me if i was a singaporean.. and i asked her why.. so she told me that i dont look local.. haha.. i started laughing loudly.. so she asked why? then i told her yah i'm a singaporean.. so she was like very very very shock.. so i ask her what makes her think that i'm not a singaporean.. then she said she don't know how to explain.. so she went to get the size of the shoe for me (: then she came back.. and i comfirm the size of the shoe.. and i change out of bye bye brown brown shoe.. then i asked her again.. why she say that i dont look local.. then she said because of my accent and the way i bring myself out.. then i started laughing loudly again.. then she asked me why.. so i told her.. funny though.. she say i really dont look local even by the looks.. SEE! PPL I TOLD YOU I LOOK LIKE ALIEN!! hehs! ((: bought the shoes.. then went back to taka to get the gucci bag because the sales person at taka told us that there's no stock so they have to go over to paragon to get the stock.. so yeaps.. got the bag and all.. then they send me for a car ride because it was still rather early then went to baby's work place there to find her then send her home.. took a cab.. drop her then i went home.. so yeapps

i dont like you calling me woman :(
wasn't feeling good today..
sorry...
tired and pain..
OUCH! OUCH! :(

2007-01-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

today woke up early but.. i miss my bus.. so i cabbed so school.. so now i announce that i'm offical broke for the week.. geees.. hmmm.. had some bee hoon noodles for lunch.. lesson was as usual.. but today class is like freezing cold.. was so cold lurhs.. had a few attacks today.. stupid gastric.. i ate but still like that.. tskk.. stomach keep pain off and on.. but now i'm immune to it already.. geees.. hmmm.. went home and slack then had piano.. so yeaps.. thats what happened today..
its a raining day today.. my mood will be =((

wondering how is baby doing?
its raining
did she keep herself warm?
did she get caught under the rain?
is she still hungry?

i'm worried for her =(
hope that she will message me
and tell me that she's fine..
and i'll be on the bed now..
pain pain.. sigh*
=((

2007-01-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

today went to school and thought that i was late.. hmmm.. went for class and was on time.. yeaps.. then had physics so thierry and i sat behind.. so i told him design a heart shape pattern for me.. maybe i'll make a tattoo or something because i like his designs so far.. its kinda nice (; so he design one for me.. its pretty nice (: but i dont think i want that on my body.. after 2nd thoughts because vashon says that its a thing for life and its maybe going to ruin the things and the thought ppl will have on me.. so yeaps.. dont think i'm doing it.. so thierry kept that heart for his girlfriend.. haha! (: yeaps.. and stupid brynier is damn annoying.. does he have to keep mentioning my name.. irritating.. rarrrs.. make sure tml onwards he chock on every single word he says! hehs! yeaps.. had chem.. was hella bored.. principled thought us.. and frm the look of everyone's face.. you can tell that.. everyone is not concentrating and that no one is listening to what she's saying because.. she's so boring.. like we my as well read the text those kind. so yeapps.. then left school.. went to bugis to find baby.. because today she finishes work at 5pm.. so yeap.. had dinner with her which is pasta mania.. went to edge to buy a pair of jeans.. then headed to bugis street and walk around.. saw a nice puma bag and bought it.. then went back to bugis junction.. walk around... then went to adidas to buy her bag.. and then we went our own ways.. because she was going to meet miko.. so yeaps.. and since i was bored and the things were heavy.. i brought them home then went to taiyi.. because there's open house today.. after a while baby called and chat with me.. then i went home .. chat all the way home with her.. yeaps.. and she's playing her game now.. doubt she would reply.. anyways i'm off ...

stay with me

stay with me now and forever...

trying to make myself comfortable with everything i do now..
gee..
i guess...
i can do it.. its just a matter of time...
hmmmm...
having a new environment is very weird and hard to be in..
TIME is the key...

i'm missing you every single minute, hour and day.

i hope that you're feeling will come back soon...

and meanwhile...

i'll be doing my best to make it come back...

because i dont want us to end up like last time...

i want us to be happy and get over obsticles together..

and..

forever...

i love you.. i really do..

2007-01-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

hello! i'm here to update about my first day in school (: hehe.. hmmmm.. went to school.. waited for thierry and vashon then went up.. was on time (: hehehe.. we were arranged according to the teacher's decission on where we should be placed sitted.. yeaps! and.. i was place sitted next to christina and nicole (: hehehe.. yeapps... first period was math.. learning math there wasn't that hard.. because the teacher explain it in the most simplified way.. and it sounds so easy.. yeahs.. and all of us got it (: after that was break time.. when leaving the class.. heard brayner saying to mr yap loudly that he wants me to sit beside him.. like dots... he's just sitting behind me.. and i dont even know him.. lols.. yeaps.. went to 2nd floor to have break.. and i ate.. ban mian! lols! so much cheaper than parkway one (: hahaha.. hmmm.. went back for english lesson.. we had some funny funny lesson to make funny meanings.. yeapps.. so i made this.. and the teacher like it the best in the whole class which is

Lets buy this, rose.

Lets buy this rose.

get the different meaning of both of them?? yeapps.. and she was thinking about what other name can be replace by rose.. but she didn't thought of daisy! HAHAHA!! ((: and since it was a team work.. vashon coppied mine.. and the credict teacher recognised went to her.. but.. lucky not me.. because everyone was starring real hard at her.. hahahaha (: hmmm.. had bio.. with chio chio teacher.. she's one joker.. yeahhs.. bio lesson was fun... then we have our lunch break.. didn't ate anything because i was still full of ban mian in my stomach (: yeahhs. went back for geography.. learning about population and somewhat we ended up at the topic of sex.. hahaha.... hmmmm... went to parkway to have early dinner.. met life and jasmine for a little while then i had to leave for work.. yup... had a bad stomach during work.. geees.. and now i'm still having it.. rarrrs! whats wrong.. hehs! hmmmm.. anyways.. i've got my pay.. and its a pethatic 100 bucks.. gee.. how am i going to get my dear w900i.. anyways.. i'm looking for the white one.. anyone saw it anywhere? 2nd hand also can.. as long as there's still warenty (: just finish all of my homework.. and i feel satisified because after a few months of not writing and doing homework and finally! i'm doing it!!! ((: hahahaha! RARRS! yeapps.. (: feel so happy to be a student once again (: yay!!

wonder if baby's throat have recovered
i'm missing you boy,
very much.

2007-01-08T00:11:00.000+08:00

hellos (: i'm here to update again (: this morning i was say phonless.. shackks.. because my dad had to borrow my phone thats why.. yeaps.. went to taiyi.. then after that went home for tuttion.. my dear kor bought me a thick o level model exam paper book.. and is DARN hella thick! yeahs.. the reason he bought it was because mummy told him that she's hiring alwin to coach me on my math.. and that my math is of no gd to pass to get into the course i want.. so she wants me to do well for math.. and the other day i was laughin at my brother having the cutest present on earth frm jie jie because he gotten 4 math assessment books.. and now.. this is call talking too much.. i have one too.. lol! and that book really had me paying attention on it because i dont even have my basics and how on earth am i going to do that book.. when i got home.. kor already left.. hehs! but nvm.. i think he's coming every sunday ((: hahahaha ((: hmmm.. had dinner then tuttion.. yeaps.. all the way till 1030pm? yeahs.. slack a while then they went off.. i wanted to fix my dunks somehow.. and daddy saw me trying to do something to it.. he took the shoe and went.. diu diao la! tomorrow buy for you new one larh.. then i went dot dot dot.. because i like that shoe a lot.. lol.. hehs! you see.. if i like that certain item very much.. even though its broken or something i would try and fix it (: hahaha. (: yeapps..

baby is not home yet =(
talking to baby less and less =(
can't meet her that often =(
no more hugs =(
no more kisses =(
no more smiles from her =(
can't touch her only can see her frm the picture =(

BOOHOO! ='(

2007-01-07T01:11:00.000+08:00

((: this morning.. didn't go for tennis orientation.. hehe.. i overslept.. =S went over to baby's house to accompany her to bring joi to esplanade.. (: she's so cute today.. pass me the key to open the door.. then hold my hand so tight and walk.. hahaa.. and when i went into baby's room.. she did my trade mark.. hahaha.. SO CUTEE! hahaha.. ((: then i said kiss kiss.. then she kiss me ((: mwahahahahas! then... baby got jealous.. haha!.. yeapps.. got ready then took a cab down.. the annoying cab driver went one damn bloody big round around kaki bukit... so rarrrr! hmppph! baby was annoyed by that rarr rarr! hehs! hmmmm.. reached there.. then went to marina square walked around.. then baby and i couldn't touch each other for quite sometime because we kept having statics.. and its damn BLOODY IRRITATING AND ANNOYING! because.. its like even holding hand we can't hold.. we even got that "tick" sound.. darn loud! hppmmh.. doing the "E.T" way also still can't.. and even when she touch my pants i got it.. rarrr!.. and i felt so sad after that because its like.. you can see your love one right infront of you.. but you can't touch her.. its like.. DAMN! rarrrrrrrrrr! then after a damn long while.. we managed to hug and hold hand.. so humphump! after that walked around to look for baby's wallet but we didn't see any nice one.. so we went to bugis.. and she got her wallet.. yeaps.. went to burger king to have lunch and rush off because dad expect me to be home.. and he lecture me.. dots.. because i didn't do the TIMETABLE that he requested last night.. so i just finish doing it.. yeapps.. and uploaded some pictures from my phone (: yeahhs..

baby! drink more water.. dont smoke too much! until u recover alrights??
<333

2007-01-07T00:57:00.000+08:00

2007-01-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

hellos ((: hmmm.. lets talk about my day today (: i woke up late today!! cab to school as usual.. but i wasn't late.. haha.. had school orientation and get to know more people.. and i was some sort close to this girl by the name or christina.. she's from st. theresa.. yeahhs. she's nice and friendly though (: hmmm.. had ice breaker then bingo to make us get closer together and know each other better.. yeapps.. then had lunch at kfc and pizza hut.. nice nice food! yummy~ ((: hehe.. hmm.. then went to parkway to meet dearest.. she was with miko.. so yeaps.. she's still sick.! rarrrs!.. i cut my tongue today =(( because i ate the colorful lollipop.. so warning people! dont eat colorful big lollies.. they KILL! hmphh! hmmm.. met up with jing, jasmine, xiaotian and this girl call jane.. jasmine's friend (: hahaah.. yeaps.. hmmm.. walked around and everything.. went up and down and to hot shots.. played to coin coin game.. baby and adeline played it.. woah! they spend like 30bucks + on that machine lurhhs! tskkk! hmppph! saw the phone i wanted too! but i have to wait till i have 400+ bucks then i can get it =S RARRRS! hmmm.. baby had to leave for work.. so yeaps.. then adeline went to meet the rest whereas i went to taiyi.. lol.. alwin was there.. so we played songs i read the newspaper and slept for a while then ate dinner and lesson.. lols.. hmmmm.. after taiyi.. lao shi walked me home.. and while i was in the lift.. alwin bullied me.. so when i was walking.. i punch alwin.. and he went OUCH! haha.. then happen that there was a guy half eyes opened walk pass.. and after that his eyes... was.. big wide open.. hahaha.. woah. =S i must be very violent in his eyes.. BUT.. what to do! alwin bully me.. say i ben ben! rarrrs! hehs! yeaps.. lao shi walked me home and all and here i am ((: tomorrow there's CCA orientation and i'm going back to schh!! ((: I MISS KC! mWAHS! and i'm going to see my baby and dear dear joi (: <3333

2007-01-04T00:11:00.000+08:00

the previous post are those that i promise you.. yeaps..
nothing much happened today.. so yup (:

2007-01-03T13:24:00.000+08:00

my daddy and i
brother eating sausage

2007-01-02T01:04:00.001+08:00

hellos (: hmmm.. this morning woke up.. did some house wrk.. nothing much.. had math tuttion and chinese tuttion.. went for dinner.. came back continue with chinese tuttion and here i am (: boring day i had.. but least i got to see baby for more than 5 secs and got 2 kisses ((: hehe.. mwahsmwahs baby! i love you!
alrights.. here are some pictures that i'm going to upload! ((:

2007-01-02T00:48:00.000+08:00

2007-01-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

2007-01-01T02:52:00.000+08:00

woke up early in the morning... bathe changed and got ready... went to have breakfast with my parents then headed for taiyi.. slack there.. and slept there too because i was too too too tired.. hahahas.. yeaps.. after that went down to buy lunch and walk around while waiting for teacher to tell us what he wants to eat.. hehs! hmmm.. went back to taiyi ate and everything and went back to sleep.. haha.. i listened to the boys have their talk and fell asleep.. so this shows HOW BORING their talks are.. yeaps.. slept and all.. then felt that someone was starring at me.. so i woke up and realise ting zhi reach already! hahaha.. so yeaps.. she told me about her stuffs and asked me to give her some advice and stuff.. yaepps.. then the boys came in.. so we took their phone and keep taking picture because my phone can't operate in dim room because there's no night mode and flash.. this is how sucky my phone is.. whereas tingzhi one have nightmode but there were little colorful dots on it.. so we decided to use the boys ones ((: haha.. and we jam their phone with our picture.. so they are going to send us the pictures ((; hehe! yayness! yeaps.. hmm.. changed my pandent already.. yeaps.. and.. hmmmm.. slack around again... mummy came up to give me money then all of us went down to NTUC coffee shop to have dinner... met miko and adeline downstairs popular.. then went to suntec and played rock fever.. then slack around again and wait for baby to come down.. yeaps.. were using numology thingy on the both of them.. and they say their's are true.. so i'm quite happy... haha i didn't learn for nothing! ((: yeaps.. after baby reach then we headed to watch the firewrks.. and we have the PERFECT view for it.. its like UPCLOSE! woohooo! hahahha.. so loud.. and you see im afraid of things exploading and happen that the fireworks sounds like it.. so i was kind of afraid.. but baby was there to hug me tight.. i wasnt that scared with that tight hug (; yeaps.. walk to shaw tower and called a cab and went to east coast to have supper?? hahaha yeaps! and here i am ((:

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
made your new year resolution yet?
mine is...
PASS MY O's!! ((:

2006-12-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

lets see.. this morning went over to baby's hse to accompany her even though its for a short while.. but at least i went over to accompany her.. we slept till about 3plus.. hahas.. and "suey suey" i had my ~~red ink~~.. hehs! but "heng heng" baby's a girl and she have pad! hahahas! yeaps.. after that rushed home because today is my nephew's full month.. hahaha.. saw both of them.. ian chan and don chua.. hahaha all 3 letters one.. hmmmm.. lucky my niece is batrice.. hehs! not bat.. tsk tsk tsk! hahahahah! yeahhs.. met kor there too.. lols.. gong gong shave off his beard.. he looks younger.. can say the same age as my dad! LOLS!! =X had buffet.. i took like so many prawns because i love those prawns.. the way they're done and i rarely get to eat those! hahaha.. yeaps and mama's pandan leaf chicken.. hehs! all these are oily finger food.. so kor did the job or peeling it for me! hahahaha! then one of my auntie ask kor.. if i'm his wife.. DOTS LURHS.. kor was like.. this one is shihui! my wife is inside.. -.- then my auntie was like.. cheyy! sorry sorry! thought what! because u help her peel prawn and the chicken.. so loving.. i was like of course! kor kor have been doing this since i'm young.. then she was saying yah hor.. we give the most deep impression because we dont quarrel and kor pampers me too much.. lols.. yeaps.. hmmm stayed there for a while then went to jiu jiu's house to pass him some food and lemons and wait for kim to come back.. they gave me my little little baby leaf plant! hehehe! so small and cute! hur hur hur! yeaps.. then they went to da yi's place whereas we went home.. yeaps.. many things happen but i'm lazy to update.. all about shopping.. lols.. hehs! got myself a black shirt and a cap for baby but not sure if she'll like it.. but nvm its ok if she dont.. because now i'm thinking that its not baby's type! hehs! ((: thats all :)

2006-12-30T01:48:00.001+08:00

After some time I've finally made up my mind
she is the girl and I really want to make her mine
I'm searching everywhere to find her again
to tell her I love her
and I'm sorry 'bout the things I've done

I find her standing in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looks so happy in her weddingdress
but she's crying while she's saying this

Chorus:
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twentyfive minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twentyfive minutes too late

Against the wind I'm going home again
wishing me back to the time when we were more than friends

But still I see her in front of the church
the only place in town where I didn't search
She looked so happy in her weddingdress
but she cryed while she was saying this

Chorus: Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twentyfive minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twentyfive minutes too late

Out in the streets
places where hungry hearts have nothing to eat
inside my head
still I can hear the words she said

Chorus:
Boy I've missed your kisses all the time but this is
twentyfive minutes too late
Though you travelled so far boy I'm sorry your are
twentyfive minutes too late

I can still hear her say.......

2006-12-30T01:20:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning.. baby called me wake up instead of me calling her up.. hahaha! hmmm.. rush everything then went to her hse to meet her then went to the fish and chip stall area to buy prawn noodles.. the one that baby have been pestering since 3am in the morning.. promise her that we'll have it for lunch (: yeaps.. headed to tamphines after that.. went to buy movie ticket.. the queue was long.. hahaha.. rarrs! i forgot the title of the movie but the movie was great.. very funny! but the first part was UBER boring... but.. ending was fantastic.. hahahah! live at the something one.. tskk.. bad memory.. hmmm after the show called donna and asked where was she at.. yeapps.. walk passed the arcade and saw this little little boy around 9-10yrs old dancing para para.. a very small built and malay boy.. he's VERY VERY VERY good at it.. and he plays not only with a few combo but combos that kept coming and a lot a lot of combos at once.. was fantasic.. and he was graded A... hahaha! yeaps.. went to meet up with donna for a while and i had to go because i had an appointment at my new sch today for fees paying and stuffs.. yeaps.. took mrt with baby.. we were having funny times in the train then she sent me to the main road to take a taxi home because i was rather late already.. so yeaps.. reach home i still got scolded but gee.. still we reached there almost in time.. but i did called up the centre and told them that i would be late.. yeaps.. made a decission on my school polo tee already.. and i decided that it shld be black! hahahaha ((: but i have 2 black polo, 1 white polo and 1 black round neck or maybe grey.. but the material sucks.. as in.. it looks weird.. rarrs! nvm.. haha.. was sent back to parkway because i was suppose to go taiyi and mummy is going to buy something for my niece full month which is tomorrow.. yeapps.. went to taiyi.. saw joyce mummy.. so she asked me out with daddy and 2 boys to have dinner together and she kept stressing on no chicken rice as dinner.. hahahaha! yeaps.. so we had sakura instead.. its like japanese buffet.. yeapps.. was kinda full and stuff like that.. so went to packet some food then went back to taiyi for lessons.. today saw the new pandant already.. teacher say we're getting it tml.. but i'm not going taiyi tml so probly sunday? yeapps.. its kinda nice.. new design coming up too.. ahahha (: yeaps... had some talks with ting zhi too.. yeaps.. hope she's feeling better now and knws what to do (: hmmmm.. went for super at hot shots's coffee shop.. and we were some sort argueing over what milo i shld drink because i love milo peng.. but everyone stop me from drinking it at this hour and keep changing to milo hot one.. so in order to have a win win situation.. we had hot milo with a few cubes of ice.. hahaha.. milo came and i only had 1 cube of ice.. but nvm.. it wasn't hot.. haha.. so i'm okay with it.. after eating.. teacher walk me home as usual and here i am ((: hehehe!! ((:

I love my baby.. today she's so cute lurhhs! exp during the ride to eunos mrt station ((:
i'm <333ing you baby!
mwahhs!

2006-12-28T22:41:00.000+08:00

this morning woke up at around 12 plus.. surprisingly.. i was stilll in a huh? mood.. haha! and my mum have to remind me that i'm having an exam later in the afternoon around 2.30pm. hahaha.. yeahhs.. after that had lunch at home.. porriage.. went to look for my result slip after that.. couldn't find it.. so i called sister to help me see he knw where not.. then he say its on the left.. then he say cannot comfirm.. ask kor.. so i ask him to call kor then i call lao shi so yeap.. confrence all of them.. sister told me on the left.. kor told me on the right.. lao shi say inside the bag.. then after a while all say same place.. but i search over and over and over again but its not there.. sian one lurhhs! so i had to go there before i'm late and without my result slip.. rarrrs!.. so along the way.. i have 2 folks nagging and nagging and nagging.. non-stop hits.. tskk! irritated lurhs! also not my fault.. i left it in the file. but its not inside the file.. and i try finding it.. but its still not inside.. what can i do larhs.. at least help me find instead of barking and scoldin and everything.. tskk.. went there.. did my entry test.. and i got in the school... interviewed by the principle.. she kind of like me but she's strict.. tskk scary! i dont like this kind of principle.. cannot humor with.. yeaps.. mummy came and talk to the teacher and all.. and we're having our next appt tml at 4pm to pay the fees and everything.. yeaps.. went to vivo after that.. walked around.. went to daiso.. bought many jap foods and a pair of house sliper because now a days weather is cold cold.. so i bought it to keep my foot warm.. ((: hmmm.. after that went to have dinner at the food court.. was freezing over there... the food were so-so standard.. yeapps.. but many olden days kind of design things over there.. history on many things were there too.. yeah.. and then.. daddy went snaping here and there again.. whereas i kept eating.. i feel piggi-fied now.. its like.. i ate beef hor-fun.. then prawn mee.. tutu-kuey.. roti-prata.. fats lurhhs! tskk.. going fat lurhhhs!!.. after that went walking around again.. went to adidas to check if the new stocks of jacket came in already and see if my adidas converse have my size.. but sadly both also dont have.. rarrrs! then went to bodyshop and bought my body mist.. no more moon flower! so mummy bought me the rose one and ocean mist.. hahaha.. went home after that.. feel asleep in the car because i wasn't feeling well.. yeapps
reached home.. cut my brother's birthday cake and here i am blogging ((: hur hur hur! ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUANG JINGHONG JONATHAN! (:

to baby: beee.. i'm dating you out tml at 10am.. can you make it?? reply me soon <33
29thdec2006

2006-12-28T00:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 11MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY BABY AND I (:
I LOVE YOU BABY (:
MUACKX!

2006-12-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

hellos! hmm.. sorry hafen't been updating.. because i'm waiting for pictures.. but stupid blogger still refuse to let me upload for i dont knw why reason! hump! anyways.. yesterday gave baby a surprise over at her wrk place... told her i can't go countdown with her.. to make her disappointed... but she was a little.. when to her work place she saw me.. she was only a little surprise i guess.. yeapps.. left for town after that to look for miko, sharon and evelyn.. after that went walking around yeaps.. ppl were spraying those snow spray at us and everything... there's this grp sprayed the snow spray on bangala.. and then whack the bangala.. and the bangala still like huh? those kind.. so innocent larhs.. wth.. hehs! walk all the way to robinson area to take a cab.. went to esplanade.. wanted to go clubbing.. but then a few of them had to go.. so we didn't.. then we went to walk around.. ate hotdogs and made friend with the boss selling it.. hahaha.. had quite some fun time.. after that headed to east coast to meet miko, adeline, sharon and evelyn... slack a while then i went home with pebble and huiqi... yeaps.. after that around 4 plus baby came to my hse to stay over.. she was very tired.. poor baby... and hungry! and i had no food for her because my mum didn't replenish the things yet.. so she slept instead.. yeaps.. hehs!.. hmm.. woke up this morning ard 12 plus then had to go out with johnny then go grand aunt's house.. yeaps.. so baby had to leave.. i'm sorry baby =(( haiis.. hmmm.. went to maxwell to have lunch then to cathay to look for my jacket but didn't have the size i want. then went to newton because my mum had to deposit something.. then back home because i need a little trim on my fringe then to johnny's hse to wrap the christmas present for him.. irene came and fetch us over to grand aunt's place..had dinner there while waiting for dad, mum and bro.. yeaps.. had quite a fun time there.. then my dad arh.. so naughty.. go make my grandma blur larhs! he go tell my grandma.. kim kim is his girlfriend i am johnny's girlfriend.. mummy is single and irene is divorced.. dots lurhs.. my grandma really go belive.. hahaha.. she's not my real grandma.. ask in my like long distant grandma.. and she very blur one.. hahaha.. then after that we play until she give up.. whenever she say something right we say wrong.. hahaha.. in the end she gave up.. and she hump! us and walk away.. lol! damn funny lurhs! yeaps.. saw a few more never see distant cousin.. i went dots lurhs.. sum seng kiang.. tsk tsk tsk.. hehs!! yeaps and here i am home ((: tml need to wrk already!.. i'm worried for baby.. sigh* she just now spill drink.. i wonder she got scolding not.. hais.. =((
anyways..

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

2006-12-23T02:20:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY HONEY BABY BOY!

2006-12-21T01:28:00.000+08:00

hellos.. didn't blog for quite sometime and here i am ((: hmmm.. ive decided to take private o's already.. friends supporting.. so i wont let them down.. baby too ((:... hmmm..hafen't told my parents abt my decision yet... but the thing i dont want to go also because i have this feeling that if i go there.. i will sure learn bad and i dont want that to happen also.. and the course i want dont have.. so its kind of a hard thing.. and if i were to take digital audio and video.. hmmm.. it would be kinda hard because it's on maths.. and i'm bad at it..so.. yeaps.. hmmm..have been raining for abt 3 days stright already.. and yesterday i said that today will be sunny and a bit of drizzle..hmm! haha..and i was right! hahahahha! mummy b msged me and told me i was right..hahaha and she's making some tibits so she will bring some over to taiyi.. hehs.. her nice nice food its really nice nice ((: hahahha! hmmm.. daddy b is sick.. take care! hmmm.. today baby wasn't feeling well.. she was having headache.. sigh* nv take care one =(( never eat also.. hais! must take care! must eat! drink more water! dont play so much computer and stay in the room for long hrs! not healthy! sad =( hmmm... seminar today... lucky no one made life difficult for me (: happy for that.. thanks god.. hur hur.. but they all already got ready to put whatever over me.. hahahaha!! lol.. sians.. reporter didn't come.. not ready... lol.. sians... quite a few new ppl.. full house.. and quite happy.. haha ((: after seminar went to hot shots downstairs coffee shop to have supper with the brunei ppl and seminar ended quite late.. so supper was late too.. reach home abt 12 plus 1... late late.. hahahaha.. lao shi sent me all the way to my hse ouside.. hahaha.. thankks ((:

tml would be home day!
due to the condition i have with my dad.
but nvm! as long as i get what i want.. i'll do anything ((:

2006-12-19T00:43:00.000+08:00

hais.. yesterday quarrelled with you.. broke up for a moment.. sigh* things so sucky lurhs.. hais.. this afternoon got result.. kns.. so dissapointed with my art.. but i'm happy that i passed all.. hais.. parents not happy.. now more restriction.. and i'm going to ite.. and i'm upset.. hais.. guess life is shit for me.. unhappy things keep falling on me.. for a few moments i thought i had you.. but.. i'll still fall.. even with someone to guide me.. guess life is like that for me bahs... will be down for quite sometime... so yeaps.. dont try too hard to cheer me up.. because nothing wrks.. hais.. down.. down..

2006-12-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

you see.. i wanted to upload picture.. but THEN.. again.. stupid blogger is screwed lurhs! cannot like upload.. its somehow stuck for i dont know why reason.. stupid blogger.. put horse come here lurhs! cannot load cannot load.. rarrrs! anyways today went to accompany baby over at her house.. yeaps.. was fun ((: <33s..

baby wont leave you (:
mwahs

2006-12-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

hello! once again! ((: hehehe.. hmmm.. this morning.. called baby to wake up.. then after that i went back to slp.. and woke up it was like 12+ already.. so i called baby again... she say.. laopo called.. sure wake up one!.. haha.. so cute ((: she went to help me settle my friendster html then went to bathe and headed to my house.. whereas.. i went to bathe, hang up the clothes and take out food for her (: she was kinda quick.. she got to my house quite fast.. think she took a cab.. maybe not think.. but SHE TOOK A CAB.. haha.. nevermind (: she wants to come quick quick to accompany me ((: hehehe! watched flushed away, ate chicken wings and chu qian yi ding... yupps (: then after a while.. baby had to leave.. so i vacum the house and all.. tidy up the place.. changed and left for bugis to meet donna.. went billy bombers to give baby a surprise.. but she's not surprise =( but nvm.. she's happy! ((: slack there.. waited for julyn and wendy...ate a bit and left.. walked around.. went to the arcade.. played heart attack with donna and julyn.. both got attacked! hahahahah!!! hmmm.. julyn's friend came.. his name was joel? lol.. he tried to show some card trick.. but more like i trick him because after he showed the trick.. i told him i also know.. then he gave those look like.. shit.. so embarassing! hahaah!! hmm.. julyn left to meet her ah boy.. wendy left for suntec.. left me and donna.. and we were waiting for sharon.. so we walked around.. went up to the cinema floor.. sat on the floor and started playing cards again.. things got bored and luckily... sharon came in time.. ahahahha! headed BACK to billy bombers.. i can see baby so many times ((: nyhahaha =X surprises after surprises hehehe ((: donna left because she had to go.. her dad was waiting for her.. yeaps.. left me and sharon.. we chat for a while.. then we left because if we dont leave.. they will have to wait for us to leave then they can finish work... hehs! so yeapps.. (: just as we walked out.. baby finish wrk! hahahaha.. then waited for pebble.. baby and i went down first then met them after a while.. baby bought fries and apple pie.. and we had to wait for almost 10mins! rarrrrs! headed to plaza sing because sharon wants to see evelyn.. yeapps.. went there.. started looking for evelyn.. blur sharon couldn't find her and was sad.. so baby help her ask.. and the girl told us that she was at the outside counter. LOL! hehehes! sharon was happy for a moment.. yeaps.. then went to diaso to walk around see things chat and all.. then left because it was kinda late.. but sharon went to find evelyn to say goodbye.. so sweet of her.. stay at jurong still come all the way down to buy just an item and go home.. for the sake of seeing evelyn.. haha.. cute.. waited for bus and all.. then sharon appeared again.. hhahaa.. she was going home.. evelyn finishes work at 1am.. so yeaps..hahhaha.. she took an mrt home whereas we took bus.. waited for bus.. chat abt stuff.. got up the bus.. stand up through out the whole ride.. leg was hurting.. got down the bus and immediatly sat down.. hahaha.. baby sent me home ((: <333 thanks baby! and thanks pebble for accompanying (: hehs!
had a wonderful day (:

2006-12-15T01:58:00.000+08:00

hellos! sorry hafen't been updating for so long (; many things happened.. but i'm glad that i'm back with the person i love.. which is my baby ((: <33 hmm.. yesterday was my mom's birthday.. decided to go billy bombers to celebrate her birthday.. and on the other hand i can surprise baby.. (: she's been rather down or say very down because of what happened in our rs.. so i wanted to make her feel better.. and i had already planned on giving her surprises everyday... but then.. yesterday i realise that she won't be wrking so... can't go to her work place to surprise her.. gee.. nvm.. at least i went to her hse ((: hmm back to dinner at billybombers (: went there.. baby saw me.. she was shock.. walked in.. pebble saw me.. her jaw drop.. hahahaha.. hmm.. ate there.. was pretty full.. went to swenses for ice cream... daddy was being idiotic and cranky.. started acting blur and pranking ppl and acted stupid... and he took one whole stack of this lucky dip thing.. but he was only allowed to take 1.. and he started laughin.. -sick- hehs! anyways.. took lots of picture.. and i wanted to load it.. and stupid blogger refuse to load my picture.. irritants! rarrs! anyways.... waited for baby to finish wrk.. then she send me home. but then.. she didn't send me home.. instead she stayed over at my hse (: hehehe ((: hmmm... mummy help her lie to her mother.. hahaha.. mummy was in a gd mood.. lols! orelse.. WHY WOULD A MOTHER LIE! tsk tsk tsk.. my mother.. tsk tsk tsk.. hehs! ooohs.. i cut my hair too.. pebble saw me and asked me what did i do to my hair.. haha. i said cut.. and there's fringe now.. she say she thought that i rebonded my hair again. rubbish! dont want already.. so stright for what.. tsk.. ugly! hmmm.. then i told pebble.. my hair cute right.. then she went *PUKES* eyers.. so this idiot.. always like that one.. rarrs! hump!... baby stayed over at my hse.. we watch goong.. i fell asleep.. baby watch me slp.. lols! hehs.. hmmmm.. cooked spaghetti the next day.. went out shopping for things...today went to baby's hse.. suppose to be a surprise but then... she was very upset that i'm not going to find her last night.. so i had no choice but to tell her... so she was happy after that.. hehe (: power of surprises ((: hehehe! yeapps (: went with seagull and pebble.. stupid pebble keep bullying me.. humphump! hehs! went off for dinner.. then for healing then uper,super,supper,suffer.. then homed.. help baby with both her blog skin and here i am ((:

2006-11-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

heyys ((: sorry hafent been updating recently.. because my computer's internet and computer CPU broke down.. but i just repair it and everything is back to normal (: and i have a faster speed internet.. wooosh.. the bad thing is.. i got a few mins online and i have to head to bed because i'm having an early flight tml and have to reach the airport around 5-6am.. so it kinda suck.. so geee.. =(( no baby.. and i can't be spending anni with her.. sorry baby =((
alrights! till then i'll update when i'm backk!
<333

2006-11-16T17:19:00.000+08:00

hellos! sorry hafent been updating lately because my computer is down.. pratically everything is spoilt.. like DARN!! rarrrrs! many things happened but nvm ((: things are over already ((: now its happily ever after (: hehs!! hmmm.. o's will soon be over.. then i can go out with those who finish their o's ((: hiakk.. thanks to those who were there for me when i was down ((: hahaha.. now im ok ((: anything just call me ((: i'll be here to listen! hehs! recently this bastard came and look me up again.. have no idea whats wrong with him.. he can jus go and fk off far far far away.. i like can't even b bothered but he's like interupting.. very like.. annoying bahhs.. hahahhaa.. joi joi is beside me now..so cute! haha.. she knws how to say apple, orange, papaya, bananna.... so cute lurhs! this morning went to consult the doctor because my hand was having some allegies on something.. baby accompanied me there ((: geees.. hehe.. thanks baby! then we went to play pool and baby paid for my membership.. hehe! went to jere's hse after that then went to bee's hse ((: hehe.. ooh joi so cute! hehs!! anyways.. see you guys! haha..jia you for those taking o's.. exam is going to be over soon! JIA YOUU!!

2006-11-05T23:41:00.001+08:00

Dear god,
hello (: im in pain now.. can u please take away all my pain? my gastric pain, my cramps, my running nose, and and everytime i stand up i can't see anything until for a while.. whats that? can you tell me? can you heal me? why did u made me be such a painful soul.. suffering from things that normal kids dont have? god is this the way you are telling me that im special? everyone is special and this is my special thing?? take away my heart pain because i run out of medication already.. take away that stupid mosquito that is biting me all over.. and let it sting other things beside me.. i promise not to eat sweets anymore.. including sugar free ones.. they are all with her.. im not eating it.. god.. why must there be so many confusion around?? can u make life peaceful for me and everyone else.. can you tell me why there must be this stupid haze that is around.. that causes me to have my stupid skin allegies and my bloody sensitive nose.. god.. please heal me from the pain im suffering now [the above] please help angel to smile for me.. devil to make me smile.. morphine to send me more songs to heal souls.. bikercser to win the game and prove that bloody bitch wrong [oops!].. help cheek0kia to heal her broken heart.. help her to pass her o's tgt with those who are taking their o's.. be with them..dont let their souls and mind wonder around during the examination.. help monkey and meh meh find their job.. just help me feel better with ease.. no worries no funny thinking and let me go to the beach peacefully later with nothing that is going to happen to me late at night because i need the sea badly and the smell of beach badly..
Our Father, who art in heaven,hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come,thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom,and the power,and the glory,forever. Amen.

thank you god

<33
me

2006-11-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

I can see it in your eyes,
No more tears, no alibis,
I'm still in love with you,
There's so much I gotta show,
I will never let you go,
But still I know for sure,
Come take me by the hand,
This summer never ends,

And I want to know that you believe in love again,
Please tell me now it's not the end,
Cause this I promise you so true,
The summer belongs to you,
Could you believe in love again?
How can I make you understand?
But this I promise you so true,
The summer belongs to you.

The summer belongs to you.

Would you catch me if I fall?
Crash and burn and lose it all,
Tell me what to do,
Cause I need you night and day,
Will you ever run away?
Just one more thing to say

Come take me by the hand,
This summer never ends,

And I want to know that you believe in love again,
Please tell me now it's not the end,
Cause this I promise you so true,
The summer belongs to you,
Could you believe in love again?
How can I make you understand?
But this I promise you so true,
The summer belongs to you.

2006-11-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

Remember the day
There was a sign
It was the time
To take me away to your arms

I heard your voice you called my name
A single touch
Would stop my pain
I feel like you in everything i do

Wouldn't it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was for just one day
Wouldn't it be good if we could wish ourselves away

Wouldn't it be good to be on your side
Grasses always greener over there
Wouldn't it be good if we could live without a care

The times passing by
I feel like you
I always do
Youre my place to hide
I don't know why
Still hear your voice
Still feel the same
Single kiss can stop the rain
So close to you in everything i do

Wouldn't it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was for just one day
Wouldn't it be good if we could wish ourselves away

Wouldn't it be good to be on your side
Grasses always greener over there
Wouldn't it be good if we could live without a care

Wouldn't it be good to be in your shoes
Even if it was for just one day
Wouldn't it be good if we could wish ourselves away

2006-11-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

So many times i was alone I couldn't sleep
You left me drown in in the tears of memory
And ever since you've gonna found it how to breathe
Cause there was so much that your heart just Couldn't see
A thousand rising dreams are rollin of my eyes
But time was hillin me and I say goodbye

Cause i can breathe again dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now i feel free again so inocente
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I find another you

Could you imagine someone elses By my side
I've been afraid he couldn't keep myself to falling
My heart was always searching for a place to hide
Could not to wait to done to bring another day
Your not the only one so hear me when I say
The thoughts of you that just fade away

Cause i can breathe again dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now i feel free again so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I find another you

Sometimes i see you when i close my eyes
You're still apart of my life

But i can breathe again dream again
I'll be on the road again
Like it used to be the other day
Now i feel free again so innocent
Cause someone makes me whole again for sure
I find another you

2006-11-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow.
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you feel my heart beat slow
I can't let you go.
I Want you in my life.

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast.
I want this to last.
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you feel my heart beat slow.
I can't let you go.
I Want you in my life.

2006-11-05T22:46:00.000+08:00

i guessed so.. in the end u told me.. never mind i'm already prepared..
its not the end of the world
come on '
cheer up.. (:
sunshine.. u promise today when u wake up there must be a smile
yes i didn't break it..
thanks(:
since i can only keep u next to me but not yr heart..
its not that im bad..
im too good to be bad.. bright side.. bright side...
if she wants to leave.. she can..
im not going to keep her.. because it would hurt me deeper and deeper..
if she wants to go let her go.. at least i'm living without regrets yah?
like what you say dont smile because i want you to smile just smile when u want to
because there i will see the real you
dont change because of me.. because i dont like you to changed.. i like you when you are you when i first know you..
smile for the day is brand new.. and tomorrow would be a better day

i still love you
but i have no idea why u dont feel that i care and treasure u
i did everything for you
JUST FOR YOU
and you felt nothing
sigh*
if i really have to have to let go then i will
if not i wont..
NOT SO EASY..

smile for myself.. =D

2006-11-03T23:23:00.000+08:00

alrights ((: here's some pictures ((:

2006-11-03T23:21:00.000+08:00

hellos! it have been some time since i last blog right? okay okay.. i'm here to update! haha.. ive gotten my pay recently.. lols.. and i spent all already.. so quick.. =S bought 8 cards for baby and thats 80 bucks gone.. bought a newbie skirt which is kind of nice.. bought daddy's birthday present.. plus all the eating and donation.. i dont seem satisified.. but gee.. at least i did thought of those who needed help! TAHA! =X went to marine south to play pool with pebble, joycelyn and friends plus baby.. then they headed to the bowling alley.. whereas.. baby, pebble and i stayed played till 5pm then we went to this radio like think.. that machine that have lots of songs and u suppose to put in money to let it play song? yah.. since almost everyone in the area was kinda "old" they were playing those "sentimental" songs.. so baby and i.. did some ji siao-ing.. we... went against them and chose techno songs and ran awayyyy.. lols.. when going down that time we heard the techno and wasn't satisfied because.. the bass was not strong. so light.. so... NOT FUNNN!! thats not part of the plan!! DARNNN! geee... headed to the bowling alley to take a look at them play then went off to town.. topman to see zoe and see if there's things for my dad's present.. went there.. wanted to buy some BOXers but didn't... because mummy already bought.. and she bought.. 2 dozen.. LOL.. sure lose to her one.. so didn't buy anything.. hahaha.. pebble was kinda interested in something in the shop so we went back.. HAHA.. hmmmmm.. headed to far east later on and saw this belt.. and i hope my dad would like it? haha... salesgirl with good service.. like it.. rather than u go inside shop the person keep looking at you.. SCREW those ppl. rarrrrs! there's so many camera not enough.. still need yr eyes to comfirm?? hahaha.. hmmm.. walk ard then send pebble to the MRT station because she needs to get home before her mum.. headed to old chang kee to get baby's food then went to baby's hse.. yup stayed for a while because i didn't want to go home so early.. no one's home.. tml brother would be having a carnival at school.. geeee! i hope baby can go...

2006-10-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

THE SOUL OF MUSIC

now i know why i play the piano when i have big feelings to show..
and i realise something!
when im sad...
i play sad songs and slow songs and no errors at all..(serious)
and when im confuse..
i play all kinds of songs even those i dont knw and even those im very familiar with i still get mistakes! geee....
and when i'm angry...
i play noisy songs and start banging and it sounds.. AWFULLY AWFUL! hahaha
yeahs..

2006-10-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

this morning didn't go sch because my mother woke me up at 6.45 asking me if i want to go sch and i said no.. so i went back to slp.. and before that wendy called me.. but i knw the phone was ringing.. the only thing was that im too lazy to move and answer the phone.. hm.. woke up at 11am when i was suppoe to wake up at 1030 to morning call baby.. went to play maple then met her at her hse and headed to bedok.. ate long john and walked ard and then i realise my handphone was missing.. AGAIN.. sian.. this time very worried because i just use this phone for less then like a week.. gee.. so i called my phone with baby's phone then i got through.. ooh and i left it in the taxi.. sian.. the taxi driver said that he would return me some other day becuse i had no cash with me to pay for the fare for him to drive frm alexandra to bedok.. so i said i give him what i have and he have to come here.. he said ok.. so like a bit wrong as what baby said.. how can he take money frm us so that he would return me the phone.. in the beging i did ask him to be a nice man and pass it to me as its a HANDPHONE worth money.. and he said no.. wait till i have the money.. like WTH! he got to the place we were at.. and he asked for 10 dollars then he give us back the phone.. so baby fork out the $10 because i had no money.. and i got my phone.. so we had the taxi plate no. taken down.. and it was already 4 and i was late for my wrk.. so baby said if like she can send me to wrk.. then i take money frm my mum first to lend her take bus home then i walk her out to the bus stop to take bus.. so i said nope.. sry can't.. because i was late u see.. and its like not the first time.. so i said sry.. a few times.. but she was angry.. so she asked me for a dollar so she could take bus home and i gave her and she walk away.. yup and she was angry .. sigh* i send her 3 msg.. the only msg she replied was suan le.. dont sms me.. i was like damn down. haix.. nvm.. my fault anyway.. couldn't send her... i only reach work place at 430.. sian.. keep getting wrong change and keying in wrong thing.. but at least i got it right after a while.. thanks to the patient customers.. hehs! thanks to baby for lending me her phone to call and get my phone.. lending me money to pay the stupid taxi driver that is going to get down deep trouble. thanks for being angry with me.. yeahhs.. thats all..

2006-10-16T21:39:00.000+08:00

hellos ((: im backk.. hmm been busy this few days wrking and all )): hehs.. and im having an upset stomach.. gee.. PAIN! its like woohooo toilet in and out in and out in and out.. it is the gastric thingy?? doubt so.. maybe its because i didn't drink milk last week and POOO! this morning i started drinking it again.. maybe thats the cause of it. not use to it huhs.. school was ermm.. BORING today.. 12 people turn up for school in my class.. let me rephrase it ONLY 12 PEOPLE TURN UP FOR SCHOOL! this is how united my class is! YAY! hahahaha.. everyone is like either lazy, wrking, not coming back for sec 5 and sick.. yeahhs.. and we even PAKKA together so they wont get scolding.. hehs! but everyone have to report to school tml with a valid MC for today.. hehs!! teachers came and only chem lesson was as usual.. mdm zarkiah says that we are like the GP programmes students.. so little 12 only. hehs.. other then that not really of a studying due to less people in the class.. mr meyer class is LAUGHTER..hehs.. he tells me that he can't imagine me being a mum bla bla bla.. saying what i will throw baby out of the window when im fraustrated.. LOL!! hehs!! im not that bad okay mr meyer! and after that he started behaving like a monkey and was doing monkey act.. so i told him.. YOU SHOULD GO TO THE ZOO.. then he said you shld go to the zoo to me.. and i was like no its you.. then he say ooh you?? and everyone started saying YOU here and there.. so wendy came out with..MR MEYER SHOULD GO TO THE ZOO.. and he went.. speachless.. HA!! anyways.. wendy meh is going to lend me her phone! thanks ((: <33 hmmm.. julyn and i got our answers already.. trlalalallas! hahahahas.. was damn curious.. but it was kinda obvious.. yeahs.. last period everyone slept with ipod earpiece in their ears and all.. hahahaha.. yupps.. gee.. came home went in and out of the toilet a lot of times also.. hehs.. and wendy got so ARGH! with my firefly deng deng deng.. hahaha.. she said " whole day already u knw??!"hahahaha.. yeah.. actually its more like 1 week already u knw.. but she didn't see me for about 9days.. yeahhs. ((: hmmm.. went off for wrk.. wrk was fun fun fun.. trlalalalas.. ooh yeah man.. auntie i no need see u for 2 weeks.. mwahuhahahahha.. im happy.. lalala. and my mother says that im evil... because... the auntie didn't treat me well.. and she got cheated on her 8K investment.. and he flew back to KL just now.. and she's not coming for work for 2 weeks.. and i'm like happy.. so mummy says that im evil.. and i told her.. HAHA! she make me angry.. I'LL SIT BACK AND WATCH HER BURN BURN BURN! MWAHHAHAHHA! lol.. then. my mother say.. ooh so evil.. no wonder u're my daughter.. lol.. sigh* baby is cool towards me =(( sigh* anyways.. shall go now.. bye bye! till then..

2006-10-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

hellos (: gee.. started wrk today.. ((: hehe.. hmm.. woke up in the morning.. met a new friend.. trained together.. then went to shower and everything.. cabbed to baby's school to take my things.. those people were siting there.. so i didn't sit there so i went to the mama shop there to sit.. baby got worried but she found me.. kinda "scolded" me because i would have told her.. but i didn't have a phone? and i can't find a phone.. yupp.. so nvm.. went to have lunch with her at bedok's KFC then headed for work.. hahaha. very very nice lady boss.. hahaha.. really pamper me and treat me like her own daughter.. hehs! hahahaha.. she walk me around the condo and everything then asked me if i wanted to go find mummy.. hahaha.. so we went there.. couldn't find her.. so went back to the shop.. and TADAHH~ mummy was inside the shop looking for me instead.. haha.. and buying food.. lol.. hehs.. was having fun wrking the first day.. but now my leg is VERY tired and aching.. hmmm.. 3 bad things that "SHOWERED" onto me.. 1st.. lost handphone.. 2nd uncle admited to hospital[yesterday] 3rd brother admited to hospital[today]

without handphone.. its kind of relaxing.. but u knw.. all the contacts and events inside.. gee.. it DRIVES people like me crazy.. but lucky.. i got baby who have my friend's no. hehs! ((: hmmm. but when im out.. people can't find me when they suppose to meet me and they get worried... and now.. WHERE HAVE ALL THE PAYPHONE GONE TO?!?!?!?!!! geeee.. hump! hmmmm.. uncle admited to hospital because he had a heart attack.. hehs.. so close to him.. was sad.. SAD SAD SAD.. but nvm for baby's sake im cheering up ((: tml going to visit him.. he promise me a lot of thing so he cannot just go like that.. meisy might be going tml.. he's having his opt tml.. as for my brother.. car accident.. minor one.. jus a few cuts and some bruise here and there and erm.. ?? stiches and his poor car.. he's sure bound to be heartbroken.. lets see.. so this whole week i guess the family will be going in and out of the hospital a few times... yupp.. love baby for accompanying me tml to visit my uncle.. ((: visited my brother just now. he's doing fine.. discharge tml morning.. so no worries ((:

trlalalalalalalalalalas (((((: hehehe..
BABY I LOVE YOUUUU

2006-10-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

today finish literature paper then went to macers to have breakfast with xiaoxuan... headed home to slack and change then headed for northlight.. did my tumbnails and color schemes.. going to do my painting techinc soon.. gee.. went to plaza sing wanted to catch the movie stay alive but then i got the wrong timing or either the show started long ago already. sigh* walk around then went to long john to eat because baby was hungry. and then.. i lost my phone.. !@#%^~%!@&%^&%*!&@#%^&!^@%#&!# so annoyed larhs.. its like inside my bag and the person got this WOAH skill to even steal it from inside.. sigh* and called mummy.. mummy ask me take care.. called daddy he told me he sold away my the other phone.. WTF!!!! MY PHONE LARHHHS! 1 got stolen.. another one father sold it without my permission.. what is this?!?!?!?! so angry larhs.. but nvm.. baby tried to cheer me up and i did (: thanks baby.. went to the $2 shop and bought things.. quite happy in there.. lol.. headed to parkway to cancel the line then went to find my parents.. and baby went home because joi was going to her house.. yupp..

2006-10-01T22:12:00.000+08:00

hellos (: just came home frm baby's house.. lets see.. today woke up early in the morning.. thought that daddy would be nice to sent me to music school for lesson but in the end.. i didn't go because he's sick and that it would be rather rushing for us.. because afternoon we have to go for REIKI... gee.. to get the certificate... but but but! sigh* all delayed and all because people didn't give their photos and some people weren't here.. so the whole day programme got rather changed and everything.. hmmmm.. alvin went for lesson we ya da ya da ya and im surprise that he's DAMN clever lurhhs.. he can memorise the duno what buddah thing and he's taking his o this year.. i thought he's only sec 2.. geeeeee... hmmm.. was force to eat grapes grapes and GRAPES.. full of grapes today.. went off to buy food for baby because she was starving and claims that she's going to faint soon..so cab down.. went to her house.. and all.. guess she's tired thats why she kept sleeping.. baby. i'm not angry at you... i just dont know why u can talk to yourself when u are sleeping.. HAHAHA! i just ayye wake up.. 9 already.. and u replied.. hello? yes yes umm umm umm.. i'm like ??????? aiya.. baby.. im really not angry with you.. so dont worry okay? didn't call u wake up because you will end up sleeping so i'll let u sleep (: you... PIG (((:

oreo.. oreo ((: tml is english paper... YAY!! papers are coming my way and TADAH! holiday.. then either i get to go take my o's next year.. OR.... end up in ITE... sigh*

2006-09-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

trlalalalas.. i only manage to sleep at 4am this morning.. then baby called me at 6 plus and chatted for a while.. then went back to sleep.. woke up at 9 plus played game then went back to sleep woke up again went to SEARCH for food but couldn't find any.. so went back to sleep again.. played game did everything and.. went back to sleep again.. sleeping only took me like 15mins-30mins not those like sleep and wake up the next day kinda thing.. which is IRRITATING! because i can't get to sleep for long.. have no idea why.. sigh**.. baby came! slack around.. and i went to settle that big huge mountain of clothes.. then went to parkway to pass my photo to kim then went to ubi to celebrate lantern festival with baby, adeline, christelle, miko, jacelyn, xiaoxuan and miko's brother.. hehs.. had fun.. baby did this acid fire thing.. the one u make a fire and u spit on it and VOOM! fire.. BIG BIG FIRE.. hahaha.. yupyup.. thats my day for today..

ARGH!!! stupid father stupid father!! tml i want to follow my baby to send joi to esplanade but then there's no more maid and my mum dont allow my brother to go out.. so i have to stay home and look after him and THIS SUCK! means no baby tml =((.. and i thought sunday u could at least see my baby.. and GUESS WHAT?! my father ruin it all.. he just told me that i have to go reiki there to get my certificate.. WTH! i arleady planed my day like morning piano afternoon baby evening baby night home.. and it became whole day DADDY.. WTF?!?!?!! now how should i plan it?? the thing is 1-4pm.. i wonder if baby wants to meet me after 4pm.. sigh....

2006-09-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

((: baby came to my house after her extra lesson and i cook for her spaghetti for lunch ((: hehs! ((((: cooking for her is fun again.. with all the love put inside.. ummm.. yummmy ((: but today's spaghetti so sourishh guess because either i mixed the pasta sauce or either i didn't put enough sugar.. gee :(( but still..baby love it and finish almost everything up.. she claims that everytime she never eat finish the food i cook for her and she's sorry.. but hey! its okay you know.. at least u ate it almost all up and clean.. ((: and i knw i suck at cooking ._.
hmmm... went inside the room because for i dont know why reason and the door was lock.. thought that baby was changing and all.. haha. after that she unlock the door and told me she deserve a lot of kiss and hug hug.. and then.....after a very very very very long time.. i realise that baby bought the heart shape like thing that i really like and hang it next to my wind chimes.. hahaha.. was really a surprise ((: LOVE YOU BABY! ((:
was really happy and jumping about because i really like that and didn't expect that she would buy it.... :D
after that went walking around parkway then headed to ubi.. slack at the blue table with baby, xiaoxuan, sharon, sean, shujing and this guy who stays near my house. yupp.. after quite a while.. cabbed home...

HAPPY 8th MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY DARLING BABY ((:

2006-09-27T14:37:00.000+08:00

hellos (: just change my layout! this layout is funn! (: u can drag those bouncles anywhere in the box and it will jump and everything.. lovely (: woke up at 930 this morning. wanted to play game.. and thanks to the server.. it was under 'updating' progress.. hehs! hmmm.. went for piano because i didn't go for a long time and that after my 'n' lvls would be my theory piano paper.. so yupp... muggggg! sunday 930am piano class.. ((: gee.. fun fun fun! at home studying.. half half.. cannot study too much because can't get it... no idea.. anyways.. thanks to people who have helped me this week (: THANKS GUYS! (((: and baby.. dont worry so much already alrights! ((: <333
im just waiting for the time to come (:
happy studying people!

geee.. tml will be having art at northlight..

2006-09-24T18:53:00.000+08:00

gee.. this morning woke up.. eye cannot open.. hehs.. so did my usual think take towl and dip with warm water and put on my eyes.. then after a while okay already.. ate strawberry jam bread then went to the beach.. after that went for lesson.. hahahas.. alvin asked me for my no. because the other time he nv ask me he ask the rest but nv ask for mine.. then everone gave me theirs only he didn't ahaha.. then he msg me when i was in the toilet.. he thought i left class.. stupid larh.. he ask.. aye.. why u leave so early? class not over u knw! its break only leh.. i replied him.. wei! i go toilet also cannot arhs.. then he laugh ask me go toilet need bring bag arhs? then i say. wei why cannot bring bag.. all my treasure inside lehhs.. then he say okok... hahaha.. went back to lesson heard his "wonderful" stry hahahas.. asked him if he was having headache yesterday because i was kind of sensitive. then he say yup.. then he told me.. wah lao i like that can knw he got headache.. he must tap ppl shoulder.. hahahs.. then i said.. u lousy larhs u.. haaha.. then he went wah lao ehh.. u wait..one day i'll master it and be better then u.. then i said. xiao di di. take yr time dont rush thing.. later u kill urself like what happened in yr "wonderful" stry.. hahahs.. then he say.. i knw u are my senior.. but u no need to bully me right.. then i say wah lao yuey wang siahs! i nv even bully u.. then his mother say.. boy ah.. dont bully girl.. u think u boy very big arhs.. then he diam diam.. HAHA! hmmm.. after lesson went to the beach stright away again.. bought her fav chocolate.. went there sat down started to cry because im still sad over what ive done to hurt this relationship and spoil everything and make her disappointed with me.. she came.. and all... didn't talk because i think i let her down too much.. so i kept quiet and was rather nervous and i was really scared that she would just ask me to break with her.. so i just kept quiet.. after a while she made me laugh and all.. then out of no reason i cried.. as in this time.. cried until damn jia lat.. haha.. then she kept saying what red like watermelon what papaya then apple then mix all together.. ahas.. didn't cry after that and i apologised.. yupp.. we're okay now... thank you baby.. i love you... hmmm.. she sent me to my hse downstairs then i went up.. went inside the hse then mummy said.. aye u're flower arhs? then i huh? what flower? i see stick.. so after that i went inside the room then i saw oooh.. a yellow flower.. forgot the name but i use to like it.. the flower that i use to like before rose.. hahahas.. yup first thing i called was sean.. cos i knw he always do things to cheer me up. so i asked him.. grandpa.. did u put something outside my hse?? he act blur and said. huh? what? then i say did u put flower outside my house and he said yes.. and he hopes that i would cheer up. thanks grandpa (:
thanks xiaoxuan and souperman mel for msging me and asking if im alright (:

2006-09-23T22:34:00.000+08:00

donna flew down on cab just to accompany me (: thanks darling (((: she forgot about the $2 surcharge.. hmmm.. she came to my hse and then i showered and all then went to parkway and walk walk walk.. haha.. went to visit jasmine then went walking again.. went to classic to play pool then went to visit jasmine again.. then went to a cafe and sat down.. started crying and all.. then donna took a whole pill of tissue and told me.. ayye.. here got tissue enough for yr use.. haha.. she's been there since i cried till i cried... hahaha.. she told me stuff that got into my head.. thick skull. so i decided to apologised.. because im really in the wrong and before i did that.. i already knw that im prepared to have all this to fall upon me and im ready for it.. was really upset.. then i kept using 1 tissue only then donna say. stop using this and use the other one its not nice.. haha.. hmmm.. and then she started asking.. wei.. u never drink water one.. keep crying. yr tears come frm where siahs.. hahahhas.. actually i have no idea too. went to get a drink (: donna bought me grape ice blended... and then when i took the black straw she went.. i knew u would take the black one.. haha.. went to hot shots and see donna play the fighting video game.. went down to seat then went up to play pool with jasmine and donna.. after 4 games we had to go because jasmine's father was asking her to go and donna's dad called her.. gee.. thanks jasmine and donna for seeing me cry till i cry and never cry finish.. hahaha.. thanks ( :

im really really really very sorry for intruding yr privacy.. yes, u have yr right to be disappointed in me.. yup.. sorry....

2006-09-23T13:58:00.000+08:00

i really think that its my fault for not not replying u when u said sorry to me.. sorry.. if u really believe that i dont mean it.. that what can i do to prove that im sorry? anything even dying i dont mind..
sigh*

2006-09-23T09:44:00.000+08:00

i'll be blogging this few weeks so no worries... sigh* both of us are taking a break.. because of what happened.. since she cannot take it.. its all my fault right? yup my fault.. she's letting go of me and thats it.. i dont care if i flunk anything already la.. it doesn't even matter.. she's my first piority.. but since i lose her its the end of my world.. thats it... reading her blog makes me thinks that im no longer hers and aiya i duno what to say larhs.. sigh* thanks xiaoxuan for accompanying me and jasmine too ((: i had a new thing to do whenever i want to cry and to stop crying is to ran and ran and ran.. yesterday was being mad la.. i ran.. ran.. ran.. ran.. i felt so gd after ranning.. like never once i can breath so damn hard.. lucky i brought tissue.. aiya.. dont care.. reach home abt 11 plus... father !@#%&^%!# aiya also dont care mother is sick.. geee.. sigh* i miss her so much.. guess it doesn't even matter to her.. since she dont want me so much

2006-09-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

hellos ((: im here to blog again.. sorry haven't been updating because i was lazy.. and due to the lazyness.. there isn't any post.. ((: went to baby's hse today. followed her to her sister's shop to pass joi to her. hehs (: i have a few pictures of joi later in the post (: hmmm.. went to marina square to play pool. wanted to watch a movie but didn't get to.. while playing pool there was 3 guys within our sight.. and they kept looking at us playing.. after a while baby had to walk away because she's talking to her mother.. and then the guy kept starring.. so i stare back.. and guess what? he wave at me.. what the hell? so i ignored him and told baby.. and baby dulan face came out.. kiss kiss her then she okay already (: headed to concourse to met leong sea gull and the others.. yup.. baby saw bastards.. haha.. the people that she doesn't like so we changed table.. played till 430 then baby send me home. couldn't go for jessica's concert because my dad didn't allowed.. so yupp.. went out with dinner with them.. and.. headed home.. baby just came home from wedding dinner and she know more facts.. hahaha.. joi deleted the picture i like =(( never mind next time take again

this is cranky smile joi

blur joi

she's holding her precious

she's attempting to kiss her baby

last but no least.. US (:

2006-09-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

(: oooh gosh! had my chinese paper today.. gee..i think its okay.. and i'm going to fail.. i think?? hehs! hmmmm... after school bee fetched me then we went to KFC and have lunch.. jasmine and friends joined later and we saw adeline and eileen.. haha. like so long never see them already (: but we're in the same class kind of thing... hahahaha. hmmmm.. headed to get my clip but there's not stock.. so went home.. changed and everything then went to hot shots and play pool with baby.. after that went home cook rice and went to the beach for a stroll (: took pictures, build a castle, played water and sand.. and we enjoyed ourselves.. geee... just finish studying for social paper.. and WHAT THE HELL! im having chinese listening in the morning and what? social like at 2pm.. its like.... WTH! here's some pictures (:

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE SMILEES (:

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE MAKES ME HAPPY (:

my baby is sick ): TAKE CARE BABY! mwahhs!

2006-09-04T20:22:00.000+08:00

its suppose to be a heart shape but it ended up as a circle. and its a castle in the middle

heart shape

<33s

mwah mwah!

2006-09-01T23:35:00.000+08:00

went out to the beach.. supposingly to cycle with meiqi, shuhui and another couple but ended up going to bugis to watch a movie.. but ended not watching a movie.. but went bugis because meiqi wants to meet nicholas to give him some stuff and talk.. so yupp.. went marina square after that.. ate long john.. went to play pool.. meiqi left.. yups.. opened 2 tables and played.. after a while got angry with baby and quarrelled.. she said sorry a lot of times but i didn't answer her and make her look like an idiot... and now she's angry with me because i didn't take her joke as a joke.. didn't answer her because i was angry and i have her the -.- face that make her angry and make her look like an idiot.. and she was angry and took her stuff from my bag and walk away from me and went home alone.. so yupp she doesn't reply my sms now... and guess she's still angry.. because she state in her blog that her patient has its limits..
now i dont know what to do so she wont be angry.. im suppoingly to be angry at some point but nvm.. forget it.. i'l just forget it.. as long as she's not angry with me and sad and stuff im happy.. she's still angry with me.. say very very angry and she hasn't calm down yet i suppose.. sigh* so what am i suppose to do?? sigh**
johnny suppose to come over to get the CDs but i weren't home.. and he's angry with mummy cos mummy said that there was someone at home.. but he waited so long and came all the way from so far.. gee.. then mummy called me and scold me.. why? because i cannot reach home in time.. like hello? i state my time that im going stright for lesson after my outing.. so am i suppose to fly back everything u want me to? WTH... aiya.. everything my fault.. reach there.. never help daddy to bring the CD also my fault.. like sorry la.. i still have to bring yr back my back yr things so many.. how can i remember.. now mummy tell me last min thing.. say.. tml she need me to accompany her to tamphinese swimming complex to bring my brother there because next week she have meeting.. and its 3.30-6pm.. tml.. what now? i can't even meet my baby and make her not angry with me and smile.. aiya forget it la.. everything is down on me.. i deserve it... never eat though.. not appitiate.. dont feel like eating.. yupp.. i met 2 new friends (: both sec 2 i suppose one is call elean the other one is called alvin.. hahaha.. elean is a not bad healer.. she knws where im feelin bad.. hahaha. and when i was hungry and having gastric.. both alvin and elean felt it.hehs!! hmmmm.. alvin is new to the school but he's physic too so is elean.. both 3 of us were communicating so fun.. ginger bread man and all.. we told master about it.. he laughed and said.. children.. its time to go home.. its late.. ive got a plane to catch tml.. u see.. he's going to brunei and he's suppose to bring elean and i there.. and my mother cheated on me and said that the whole family is going for holiday.. hehs.. im that stupid IC.. then he told me.. he want to bring me there.. and what i get paid? lol.. sorry but im not going because i have my N's and my baby to look after.. yup.. hafen't been there though.. but kim went there already to help out with the guy there that have got some WEIRD problems..
downstairs while waiting for the lift to come down i saw shu jing, jacelyn, eleana and her brother seating at mac cafe.. guess they are discussing about that thing... hmmmm.. yup..
gastric pain la... sian..

baby i'm so sorry....forgive me please... ):

I LOVE MY BABY EVEN WHEN I'M ANGRY

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE CYCLES ME

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE DANCES WITH ME

2006-09-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

((: yesterday went out with baby after school.. she waited for me for 45mins then she dulan because i was late.. sorry baby.. its the principle fault.. by right we suppose to finish at 1.15 but she talk talk talk talk talk then we ended at 1.30... sorry beee.. hmmmm. went home both of us got bathe and changed then headed to town to meet pebble and stephanie... yup didn't watch movie because we were broke .. went to yoshinoya to have say dinner.. with them.. talked and laughed and everything.. then they had to go.. so baby and i walked around then went to suntec to play 5 bucks arcade and bought cup corn and tutu kueh.. (: after that we wanted to go hot shots and play pool.. but..... the bus ride and all took us a long time to reach PP so we decided to go home.. anyways we were still meeting today.. so we can play today ((:

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE HOLDS ME TIGHT IN THE BUS

2006-08-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

geeeeee ((: today school was great.. though i got my maths paper.. which i guess.. i'm alright with it with sucky result like a pathetic 15/100.. i dont care for maths anymore.. as for social.. im normal (: i got 10/50.. hmm i wonder how did my literature paper fare.. of all the papers im only interested in.. LITERATURE (((: hmmm.. baby came to school and fetch me today ((: oooh lovely (: went home and started to rain cats and dogs and elephants and tigers and lion roarrs.. hahaha.. called alvin to check if he's at home.. then i go up and borrow umbrella.. he told me he's coming home soon then tadah he appaeared.. im a bit confuse.. he have an umbrella and then he's still drench head to toe.. baby and i have been figuring it.. but gee.. nvm.. at least we still got umbrella.. hahaha... cooked lunch for baby.. then slack around then headed to her house.. slack around took her stuffs and went home ((:

BABY I LOVE THE PROMISE YOU MADE TO ME (:

I LOVE HER WHEN I GET TO FIND HER NOSE BLOCK MEDICINE AND LET HER "SNIFF" AND THE CUTE EXPRESSION WHEN SHE "sniffs" it ((:

2006-08-29T23:36:00.000+08:00

here's a little post come video on... a girl who is physic but doesn't like to be physic because she dont like knowing how people feel but she want others to tell her how they feel.. but one thing the girl like about being physic its that she gets to heal people.. their sickness.. (:

2006-08-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

i didn't go to school today ): due to my neck.. AGAIN.. sigh* why does it always have to be there.. other place lurhhs. there is like.. thrice and its like PAIN-killing.. so didn't go to school.. parents know and didn't let me go to school either.. they say.. eat too much koropok.. RUBBISH! i didn't!! then he said i slept late yesterday.. i said... NO! because its the first time i slept at 11.15pm i think.. i not sure.. but before 11.45pm (: hahahaha. hmmmm.. woke up.. and first thing.. send baby a message to wish her good luck for her practical.. then she replied she's going to fail.. no baby no.. as long as u did ur best u will past and u will always past in my heart alrights? woke up.. went round the house to find things and do so i took down the clothes and fold and all.. then went inside the room read some book and went back to sleep.. by the time i woke up.. its already 5pm.. hehs! wahhh sleep so long.. but i felt like i never sleep so peacefully in my life (: yupp.. tried to cook cabbage.. which i did sucessfully after 1 year.. not touching that dish.. hehs! ((: hmmmm.. went for lesson after dinner. during meditation i really thought a lot and erm.. a few drop of tears came down to play.. yeahs.. gee.. our memories in the past.. i still miss very much.. and now i treasure every thing u do and say.. baby, i really really trying hard to change for you.. just for you i will.. just for u i dont mind doing anything thats impossible and turn it into possible and will try harder...we can still go back to the past.. its just the trust we have and how much you want me to go into you and believe that i would love you more and more as time passes and im already starting to trust u already thats why i told u my past stories.. and i really hope u wont put it to heart and listen.. and dont compare others to you because they can't be compared to you.. you're too good to be them.. and you are mine they are not mine alright?? better study study study for your o levels prelims alright.. <33
baby... i love you

I LOVE YOU WHEN YOU STARTS BEING CONCERN TOWARDS ME

I LOVE YOU WHEN I MAKE YOU SMILE

2006-08-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

ooooh, i failed my chemistry paper i guess... section B i have only 7 1/2 upon 30.. uhhhs.. disgrace.. hackks... i jst dont get what is she trying to explaine.. and no one gets it either.. hmmmm... went home after school.. fetch baby at her school then went to parkway then went home to cook rice then went to baby's house then came home.. yupp (:
here's some pics from my little girl (:

((: this is my little girl (: she's my piece of art (: <33

sorry baby for what happened
i dont like it when u sua me and give dulan faces
i dont like it when u keep using those words..

I LOVE HER WHEN SHE GOES LALA

I LOVE HER WHEN SHE TRIES AND ACT BLUR

2006-08-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SEVENTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAREST BABY ((:
i love you (:
dearest baby,
all these months we had quite a no. of low and high times in this relationship.. but we still manage to give each other a chance to treasure, love and understand each other.. i hope we learn from our low times and do better alrights? forget the past and start afresh without anything or anybody to come in between us alright? remember your promise u make.. u will smoke for about 3-4 mths ONLY.. its on the blog.. so everyone can see it.. (; teehe! hmmm.. alrights (: i'll end off with three pictures of memories((:

this is the pig pig she gave me for anni (:

her hand and my hand forms this heart shape

both of us ((:

2006-08-27T23:18:00.000+08:00

((: just came back from baby's house again (: hehe.. hmm.. went there in the afternoon.. then jacelyn and miko came and use the computer a while.. while baby and i watch the show devil beside me . yup.. baby dear baby ate 3 packets of instant today! bad for health hehs baby! cannot always eat instant! hmmm.. cook the mee goreng for miko.. then jacelyn ate my skitters without grape inside.. hur hur! lucky me gave her the one without grape one in it.. HEHS! :B hmmmm... slack around.. then miko and jacelyn left because shujing called them.. then continue slacking.. then before i went home baby walk me to the blue table.. because adeline was there and we were to share cab home.. yupp (: baby left after she gave me mwah mwah! ((: hehehe.. <333 hmmmm.. talked to adeline on the cab.. crappy old her the same as the past.. talk about few things and all. yupp reached home msg baby and baby msged me.. both send at the same time.. hur hurs! ((:

sorrry baby for saying words that are not meant to be spoken.. baby you too must try not to say so much of that even though you're angry alright?

I LOVE YOU WHEN U BREATH ON MY SKIN (:

I LOVE YOU WHEN I ASK YOU TO GIVE ME A KISS YOU WOULD SAY I GAVE U JUST NOW (:

I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EACH DAY WHEN I GET TO RECEIVE SPECIAL THINGS FROM YOU (:

I LOVE YOU FOR TELLING ME ON YOUR BLOG WHAT YOU DONT LIKE ME TO DO SO THAT I WOULD TAKE NOTICE AND CHANGE <333

2006-08-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

(: just came back home.. went out with baby in the early evening.. hmm.. went to bugis to buy my bag.. because my pink pink bag spoilt.. gee.. got the same design but its brown.. nyhahaha.. hmmm.. went to buy ballball to eat.. and bought my stuffs again then went to town to change the shirt i bought for baby ((: went to cathay first to buy our click ticket.. baby so nice to watch it with me because i didn't watch but she did. ((: proceeded to heeran to change her shirt to XS.. hahaha.. how small size.. but i had to wear XXS.. and they dont have it.. hehs! hmmmm.. went back to cathay and watch our show (: very nice show. and i cried.. so sad ): after the show we walked around and bought a piggy bank to save our money ((: gee.. hehe. then went to taka after that to walk around then headed home.. yupps..

SORRY TO MY LOVE
today baby tolerate a lot.. gee sorry baby.. hmmm.. i really didn't know yr exam dates.. sorry... i should have spend more time to know yr school exams and understand you more... sorry for being stubborn.. i will try to change okay? sorry....

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE WIPE AWAY MY TEARS FOR ME

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE KEEPS EATING OLD CHANG KEE

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE TRIES AND EXPLAIN THINGS TO ME

2006-08-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

this morning,met with a small car accident together with wendy inside a comfort cab.. gee.. it happened because the taxi was very anxious and the reason to it its because he didn't know telok kurau area cannot be U-turned to the school.. yupps.. and when he tried to, a fast passin car knock against the side of the side which is the side i'm seating on. wendy and i both got shock and the uncle ask us to get another cab because he have to settle the problem with the other car problem.. so wendy and i left.. we were some sort of shivering because it all happened so suddenly.. yeahs.. got another cab to school.. also comfort.. but this time... the uncle drove us to the wrong venue and we kept asking him to u-turn and he didn't hear.. gee.. reach school and we were late... teachers dont believe.. blah blah blah.. detention.. 1 wrd.. sian.. hmmm.. maths paper 2.. so going to fail.. why? because firstly i didn't study.. and secondly the paper is though! -yupps.. after the paper had a late breakfast cum early lunch with xiaoxuan in school.. went home changed and all and met up with her to go to town to change some things for baby.. went there.. wanted to get another sports bra.. but couldn't because all V neck.. and baby only wanted a round neck one.. so i got for her a shirt from imp instead.. xiaoxuan too bought another one for eileen.. yupps.. walk around heeran than went to the mrt station. while wanting to top up xiaoxuan's ez-link card, a japanese woman came up to us and tried to tell us that she needs to buy 2 ticket for her 2 son.. and how can she do it.. but she said everything in japanese.. so we tried to understand.. so we ask her where is she going.. she said cityhall.. got the ticket for her.. and japanese are kind and well mannered people and she kept saying thank you. went down the stairs, saw them kind of lost.. and xiaoxuan said that they were standing at the side which the mrt is going towards jurong direction.. and so she went up to them and told them. haha ((: got in the MRT.. then reached cityhall.. told them to leave.. after a while, she came running after us. asking where should they go to see the merlion.. but then we didn't understand because of the slang.. so she went with the action * ShhHHhhHHheEeeeeEe (hands showing water coming out of mouth) and went meRlIOn... hahaha.. yupp. told them and she thanked us a few times.. after that fetch baby from her school bus stop.. went to her house and slack around.. having bad headache.. and i have no idea why.. weirdness.. )):

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE GETS LALA

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE GIVES ME MANY KISSES

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE HELP ME MASSAGE MY HEAD WHEN I WAS HAVING HEADACHE

I LOVE THE PIG MY BABY GAVE ME

I LOVE MY BABY WHEN SHE KEPT PRESSING THE PIG WHICH STARTS SAYING I LOVE YOU <33

2006-08-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

woke up and went ARGHH! i wanted to fetch dearest to school but didn't set the alarm.. sighs.. lost hope in myself.. so blur.... hmmm. woke up did my sketches.. went school met vernie, xiaoxuan and wendy outside school. went in then went for art exam.. screwed... guess i'm not going to pass art this time.. didn't even paint half of my art piece.. and if i did. i did only half and a lousy half.. so dissapointed with myself.. sigh*.. after school stayed for lunch with xiaoxuan.. then went home. she came to my house.. then changed and everything headed to parkway to change the size and pattern of baby's sports bra.. but sadly dont have the size.. so i reserve one at heeran.. going to help her get in during the weekends so she doesn't have to travel around.. not so tiring for her.. yupp.. walk around with xiaoxuan and evelyn than headed home.. reach home.. didn't know what i shld do.. so... i went to sleep.. baby called and ask where was i.. told her i was home and she went.. huh.. orhh nothing.. then she put down.. asked her why than she told me that she's gonig to parkway... cute... slept slept.. dad came home and disturb me and went.. girl.. girl.. girl.. wake up already.. morning already.. late for school already.. than i shouted.. dont disturb me please! i just sleep only.. and its evening its not morning and school is already over.. and he went.. yah.. just sleep... than he left me alone.. but not his office calls.. than.. halfway.. in my lalalala land.. people started calling my handphone looking for my father in which that makes no logic.. u looking for my dad.. and u called my no.. hmmmmm... lol.. couldn't sleep so woke up.. feeling very empty. no idea.. hmmmm.. ate dinner.. and here i am again.. hehs..

Things that died-ed on me today :

handphone
washing machine
cup of salt water
art piece
computer
iron
windchimes
.
msn
clock

i miss my baby.. i really hope yes we dont quarrel anymore.. i really want you you you.. im trying my best and i will still try my best to do anything u want and help you whenever u need help.. listen to you and understand u more.. not to make u angry anymore

I LOVE HER WHEN SHE GIVES ME SURPRISE KISS (:

I LOVE HER WHEN SHE JUST FINISH BATHING; THE SOAP SMELL CAN EVEN BE SMELT FROM THE PATHWAY LEADING TO HER HOUSE (:

I LOVE HER WHEN SHE SAYS POMPOM q:

I LOVE HER WHEN SHE'S EATING CUP CORN :B

2006-08-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

no.. its not that... jus that we didn't put ourself in each other's shoe to feel how she would feel after saying those stuffs. call us self-fish in another words.. we just care about ourselves... and what is right... although u wish that u could love be like before.. i can tell u.. that u wont love me like before that much because u've been hurt by me.. and me too.. but i still reach out and trust and believe to love you like in the past.. even though i said things would be different.. different in which it means.. will not be like the past and might be stronger than the past because of failure and pains... now i'm feeling physical pain because i think i'm going to get my attack soon because these few days ive been having some time to catch my breath and everytime when it happens.. its always in pain.. very pain pain to breath.. sometime i think.. should i just stop the pain by not breathing.. but the pain will not go after like 10-15mins.. this is how much pain i will feel.. guess due to exam stress.. i didn't tell you also because... you want to concentrate.. and i dont want because of anything we would quarrel.. i really dont want to quarrel with you.. really dont want.. or even start.. i just want to tell u how i feel and hope u would tell me how u feel instead of me asking you how u feel.. i want you to come to me like before and tell me stories and how u feel about certain things and most importantly yourself...
i guess i'm going to get some rest now.. i'm really unwell..

2006-08-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

did some thinking.. the negative one is that i'm just not good enough for you.. the positive one is no matter how much pain i feel anymore it doesn't matter as long as you are happy im okay with everything you do.. i will still do my best to make your feelings come back but still.... i will have some difficulties... but i will still try.. like you say.. try at least better than not doing anything.. though her words are harsh sometimes.. i still have to bare.. because i like her everything and love her everything.. i have many reason why i love her and like her.. but sometimes.. it can be explained... because it just can't be explained... when i'm sad.. i just have to say to myself..come on.. dont be sad.. at least u tried.. or smile for her.. it would make her day... in a relationship.. sometime one side gets hurt.. but soemtime.. both get hurt.. so... yupp.. if you want to go into a realtionship i have to get prepared for it too.. sometimes. i know what she wants.. she msg me and said sorry if her words sound harsh or whatever. but she dont like pple to aologise when she like dont even noe what she's apologising for.. but just now i did know why i said sorry.. but i just dont want to say.. maybe i should just tell her the next time... she was angry abt what happened yesterday... yup.. i said sorry because i didn't let her choose what she wants to do... and never though how she would feel.. and never put myself in her shoes.. and this is why.... i'm sorry..

2006-08-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

gee.. (: finished exam at 9.30am.. headed to macs for morning breakfast.. and the whole parkway is like a quiet town and that.. only 2 KC girls eating macs breakfast early in the morning and thats ONLY 2.. wendy and i... hahaha.. weird.. felt like we were skipping school and stuff.. but.. we didn't!! we are just different case.. we finish school early ((: hahaha..
went to my hse after that.. than did some house keeping and wendy had to leave to meet someone at simei.. yupps..
alone at home.. so quiet and stuf.. shivering cold.. i have no idea why now a days i feel seriously very very cold like i'm going to die anytime.. okay... rubbish. hmmmm... studied for a while and went to bed.. because i didn't really sleep in the night... couldn't sleep, was thinking of some stuffs.. yupps.. baby called me saying that she finish school already.. she's coming to my house first because she wants to style her hair and that she says its messy.. hahaha.. yupp
went to popular to get our notebook for notes and some pens.. didn't manage to get the design we wanted so we went to MPH instead.. got the book this time but not the pen.. so nvm.. went to KFC because baby is hungry. hehe. hmmm.. went to popular again but this time got pens.. hahaha.. sent baby to the bus stop to take bus then headed home.. having really bad stomach.. but i didn't eat anything how can i be having bad stomach.. thats weird.. very weird. hehs.. hmmmm...went down to walk donna to my house because she feels weird.. walking alone.. came up slack around. and she ate her mummy monster.. and she left.. hahha.. due to exams tomorrow.. yups
just some sort quarrel with baby.. guess because i dont know what she wants.. and when everything will try to go back to normal that time.. i will be the bad one ruining everything.. i really didnt mean it.. but i guess im bad enough to understand her... and i deserve all this things.. after all "what goes around comes around" sigh* hmmmm.. reason being because i very scared she will do badly for her exams and this year is her 'O' levels.. i scared she cannot manage.. very very scared she will not get the results she wants.. and than i will blame myself.. because i'm really very scared so see her sad.. it hurts so much.. gee.. our 7mth anniversary guess would be spending time doing some things that we never did before...
baby im sorry for not trying to understand you and knowing what you actually want..
but i just want to let you know that
i dont wish to loose you anymore
baby, i really love you, i do. REALLY...

2006-08-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

woke up early in the morning.. went to marine terrace just to have breakfast.. which is delicious MINCED PORK PORRIAGE.. the only one that i would love to eat in marine terrace.. ((: went for morning exercise after that.. thought i was late.. but ooh lucky.. we were EARLYY! ((: still had enough time to walk by the shore and brother and i found a walking stick like stick.. its darn cool.. it has like a snake top.. meaning.. on top.. it has a snake like feature and shape. but below its just some ordinary stick.. after some thoughts, brother and i decided to present this nice shape unique stick to master (: hahaha.. yupp.. he was happy with it.. haha (: went home after that.. mom brought the 3 new sets of uniform for alteration shorten the skirts.. because its LONNGG!! haha.. yupp.. dad came home and blabbers lots of things into my brain and it came out of the ear.. yups.. lols.. hahaha. then mom quarrel with him because he wants me to go for my lesson but mom dont let me go because she thinks that i have to concentrate for my prelims.. and so....... mom and i won the battle.. lol..studied for a while then fell asleep.. then hubhub call me then we were thinking what should we do? and i was thinking since im not seeing her next week because she's going to be studying.. than perhaps go out today (: went to bugis.. ate dinner at some chinese restraunt then went for our movie. the ghost game.. baby got frightened twice (: so cute.. hehe.. then i pat pat her heart and say relax relax.. so cute (: hehe.. after that took a bus and went home.. waited with her for bus then i walked home (: gee.. hehe..

thanks baby for making me enjoy my everyday with you
thanks baby for rubbing my hand and keeping my hand warm when i was cold
thanks baby for hugging me tight to keep me warm (:
thanks baby for making me happy (:
I LOVE YOU
THANK YOU (:

2006-08-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

lets see.. watched finish the VCD that hubhub lend me.. ate lunch, cook lunch for hubhub then went to her house.. slack around and continue watching the VCD with her... and slack around.. dinner was searching for food.. hahahahha.. hubhub show me her things and all (: cute

sorry for making you angry with me just now okay? sorry sorry sorry!

2006-08-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

gee.. i guess i'm gona fail my english paper 1 or perhaps 2 too terribly.. can't even concentrate.. because i'm not confortable seating on the table im being ask to.. so eee. i dont know how to answer.. argh!.. hmm went to KCP with donna and wendy.. bought my uniform.. then lazy wendy and i took bus 16 and went one round because we were lazy to walk.. hur hur!.. went home bathe and waited for hubhub to come.. did my art then we went to my talor to ask her help me shorten my uniform.. bt she wasn't in.. hehs! went for dinner with hubhub at KFC then headed to her house.. watch the same show again.. i think its damn nice ((:

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ilovetoseeherwhenshessleeping
ilovetoseehercarefortheelders
ilovetoseehercareforothers
ilovetoanswerhersillyquestions
ilovetohugher
iloveherkiss (butshecantkissnow =(. ulcer go away!)
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iloveeverymomentspentwithher
andimstuckonher!

loveyoubaby<3

2006-08-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

(: went to baby's school to fetch her then headed to her hse (:
watched show..
now i know how to tell her how i feel already (:
i really felt very happy today when she hugged me and hold my hand so tight (:
i love her more and more when she smile
her silly actions make me addicted to her
her words makes me fall in love with her
i love her everything

baby! i promise i will treasure this last chance!

2006-08-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

if i got down on my knees and i pleaded with you..

if i crossed a million oceans just to be with you..

would i ever let you down?

if i climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight..

if i said that i would love you every single night..

would i ever let you down?

well I'm sorry if it sounds kind of sad..

its just that i'm worried,

so worried that i'll let you down..

because I love you, love you, love you..

so don't let me down..

if i swam the longest river just to call your name..

if i said the way i feel for you would never change..

well I'm sorry if it sounds kind of bad..

it's just that i'm worried,

cause i'm so worried that i'll let you down..

Because I love you, love you,

I love you, love you, love you...

2006-08-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

guess these past few days have been down down down days.. but im trying to pull myself together and live life like the past which im trying but sadly can't when i dont know why. things really have changed.. i guess her feelings changed for me.. not surprise either.. guess im that bad as a girlfriend.. friends have been there for me... thanks girls (: although they claims that i look like a dead zombie walking around the school and like anytime im just going to start being mad.. okay.. nevermind.. didn't really talk.. because i dont know what to say.. and ive got nothing to say.. my mind is like her her her.. what shld i do?.. what can i do?.. what does giving more time means.. im thinking.. should i leave her alone to let her think? or should i still talk to her but like dont preasure her with the time thing.. feeling very cold.. hmmm.. someone please tell me what i should do.. so she can come back fully to me? in another 13 more days will be our 7th anniversary.. i guess we will be quite weird here and there.. nvm.. at least she's still happy i hope.. and i'll pray that she would study hard for her 'O's and prelims.. she must concentrate CONCENTRATE.. now its not the time for our funny things to be inside the mind.. its books.. b00oks and BOOKS! yes (: alright. gtg now (: takecare people

2006-08-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

WHY MUST SHE LEAVE ME!
WHY?!?!?!?!

2006-08-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

im going down a depression state. sorry. its too deep.. too hurt.. very sad.. i dont know what to do.. dont know what to say.. she wont come home.. she wont.. =(

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